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Aculias
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posted February 09, 2005 05:05 AM |
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Maybe I went a little over board.
No ones business whats going on here her or anyones life if they shouldnt make it thier business.
I knew i was wrong when i wrote it.
I was mad because she was so cold how she talked to me.
I am only human just like her & anyone else I am not pewrfect COnsis.
Let me ask you all a QUestion, would you forgive her if you wer ein my shoes.
I t was a low blow I am sorry for that.
I was so mad at her that she said what she said.
I made many mistakes in my life.
I actually didnt realise I was that harsh until you said somethang COnsis.
I dopnt know what I was thinking I was so mad at her.
Every post she makes, was so cold it hurts & I wanted to return the favor but I messed up big time so I guess i should apologise to her.
If your Making a difference then God bless you finally get what you are looking for & I am sorry for my harsh comments.
I didnt realise & was uncalled for.
Just please help yourself ok,take care of yourself & just I dont know just take care of your life & try nopt trwat anyone wrong again.
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Dingo
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posted February 09, 2005 05:07 AM |
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Too all you noobs, (joined within the last year) please learn HC history and the habits of some members before you are tricked into believing lies.
You can only apologize so much, before it becomes B.S.
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The Above Post/Thread/Idea Is CopyRighted by, The Dingo Corp.
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Leo_Lion
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The 5th Element & 6th Sense!
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posted February 09, 2005 06:16 AM |
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Aculias,
I am impressed by your last Post and totally admire you for it! You have shown yourself to be a man of honour & worthy of my & others' respect. You seem to have overcome your emotions and expressed your true message...which is one of forgiveness and well-wishing!
Bravo!
I always find it incredible when people rise above their past, take hold of their present, and create a better future for others, and more importantly, for THEMSELVES!
Awesome Post, Manuel!
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*The end to no beginning...
*Take care, Leo
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Consis
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Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted February 09, 2005 07:17 AM |
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Some Things To Say
Aculias listen Leo_Lion; he speaks the truth. You have honor. Remember what makes you a real man. You must have the courage to say you're sorry when you're wrong. There are many people in this world who will never do that. I'm glad you aren't one of them. This shows you are a good man but I knew this even before you apologized. I have been at Heroes Community for over a year now and I can tell you have a heart of gold.
I think the problem is when we let a person in close to our heart. In that state is when we are most open and vulnerable. You let her in and now she is gone. These things happen. There are many things in life still to come. It's good that you were honest but not at the cost of someone else's pain and suffering. Some people live very troubled lives. We don't know the reasons why this is. Some call it a choice, some call it victim of circumstance, and some don't know what to call it.
Let me tell you about a neighbor I once had. Her name was Amanda. She was young and her husband was young too. They were both about 22. They lived across the street from me; two houses over. They would fight a lot in their house, the street, their garage, and their driveway. The police were there many times. Neither of them would get a real job. They wouldn't even work for minimum wage. They wanted to keep their fancy car by selling weed. They had two small children; a little boy who was 3yrs and his little sister who was 2yrs. They claimed welfare and so they got stamps monthly. When the drugs wouldn't sell because the police staked the house, the mother would come over to my house and other neighbors to beg us for work. She would beg to wash my car or cut my grass for any money we could give her. She even tried to sell her only food stamps to the other neighbors for cash. This was the only thing that was feeding her children. I was so sad for these little kids so I called the police and told them. They finally got her and her husband on charges of selling food stamps because they could never catch them with the drugs. First the kids were taken to a shelter and then Amanda's father legally took them into his care. Then Amanda and her husband, Josh, were forcibly kicked out of their house for not paying rent in over 9 months.
I never hated Amanda or Josh. I would watch her two children on occasion and I loved them. They were sweet and it was very sad to watch all the things that happened around them. Amanda would always ask me for money whenever I saw her and Josh could never look me in the eye after I pulled some strings to get him enlisted in the army. The army recruiter gave him the written test; he passed; and he was accepted in by the following week. He never showed up and the recruiter called me asking where he was. He could have made a good living for his family. The whole point is I never hated them. For whatever reason, they were messing things up bad for themselves and their kids. You can lead a horse to water Aculias but you can't make it drink. Be true to yourself and help people when you can. That's all you can do. No one is perfect.
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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted February 09, 2005 07:30 AM |
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I am not like Mark, I dont hate her either.
She just dont care what she did to me or how I feel & what I went through & I dont think she ever will but...........................................................I forgive her.
She wants to hate me still or get mad at what i say, i guess no point in really trying to say nothing anymore.
Just to hope good comes to her & hope good comes to me too.
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KittenAngel
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Lee's wifey
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posted February 09, 2005 11:50 AM |
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JFYI I have an awsome job I make 6.40 and hour right now wich is great here in WVa, also my car is a 93 chevy corsica. Manuel as for mykids and my daughter say what you want, you talk about mebeing cold hearted, well yeah you just tore mine out ofmy chest and stomped on it, you KNOW how hurt I am over my childrn, and I agree that was a total low blow. They are innocent in this leave them out of it! I am not mad about the comments but yeah hurt upset crying I am, my mother on the other hand yeah she is pretty mad....... I am changing my life as much as I can a person can't change over night, and I am getting the help and support I need. Again all I can say I am sorry for being a cold hearted *****.
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Never wear anything that panics
the cat.
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TheRealDeal
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Foobum* of Justice!
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posted February 09, 2005 03:38 PM |
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This has turned out to be SUCH soap opera. This started as a "Confessions" thread, and it's slowly becomming a "The days and lives of Aculias and Kittenangel" ? Am i the only one who thinks that this should have been done somewhere else than in this specific thread? Or at the least should have held more information per Post?
I was about to say something harsh to you both, but since Aculias has just showed his worth, he has done it to himself, so to speak.
But Kitten, what are you trying to pull? Why do you think you are met with such negativity? First of all, i don't know why but when i read your posts they seem reeked with BS. Maybe thats because i've been over influenced by a lot of people who clearly have it out for you, or maybe i've just got a good gut feeling, who knows, i certainly don't. But i'm speaking from what i know, and this is you should stop now. Stop while you can still walk away with some dignity. Everytime you get a chance for someone to sympathise with you, you take it. I don't personally hate you, or even something close. But it's starting to show... When you can bring it up, you do. Don't you think it's time to MOVE ON? Mentioning it often doesn't make it all better... And then came the "A sudden brush with death"-thread.. I mean.. COME ON! Even when everybody says it's a load of horses **** you carry on defending it, while you should have left and cut your losses.
Maybe i'm just being a Goat.. and if the Mods think i'm being to much of a goat, i'll delete it if it is needed. If not, i'll gladly let my thoughts stay here for all to see.
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*We all know the that Foobum is the class of all that is Cake.
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pandora
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The Chosen One
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posted February 09, 2005 04:43 PM |
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Ugh, I agree with RealDeal here. Enough is enough already.
I will try to honor the spirit of the thread and find positives, but I'll admit its not an easy task.
Kitten, if you have really changed and found a life offline, live it! Why come here and dredge up the past and try to be the center of yet another giant drama? If you've really found God, handcuff him to yourself this time and throw away the key, 'cuz every other time you've found God you've lost him straight away again.
If you really really want to get this off your chest and try to make it better, then why not confess what you really did. Be brutally honest and tell it all, maybe it'll start you healing.
If you really want to make things right by Aculias, pay him back. Don't do it all at once, but if your job is going so well, then why not send him 50 bucks now and again to try to get yourself back to even with him.
Words just don't work anymore, if you want to make the change in your own life then you have to act. You can't move on from your mistakes if you don't look at them honestly for what they are and take ownership.
I really do hope that you can do it.
Aculias, I know just how much she's taken from you , and I don't just mean the money. Remember that you're a good person and good things will come your way  Don't keep holding onto this anger, its no good for you - you have to just let go. And you know if you need an ear I'm always there to listen
Let's please try to get this thread back on track, if there really is a need for a Kitten/Acu flamefest thread, go make it in the Wastelands at least, not here 
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"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted February 09, 2005 04:45 PM |
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No I deserved it.
ALl she did was treat me like this anyways & for once since I known her I deserved to get talked down like that.
Like I make one mistake & I always get the the full charge, she makes a mistake & I have to talk like Mr. Rogers.
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Leo_Lion
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The 5th Element & 6th Sense!
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posted February 09, 2005 07:09 PM |
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Speaking of moving on...I am going to move this Thread along with my next confession!
Shortly after New Year's Day, I found out something about my parents that I would like to share with all of you. While my father was out of town visiting his family and also going to pick up my little cousin Angèle (they took legal custody of her years ago because her mom is bi-polar), my mom decided to move out and separate from my father, or more precisely from Angèle.
I have known all along that my mom & my cousin have not been getting along well for years. My mom is the type of person that loves you if you do what she says and doesn't like being questioned or opposed. Basically, she does not love unconditionally. My cousin is a sweet girl, but she is also messy, sometimes inconsiderate of those she lives with, and can be a real "bird-brain" at times. Basically, she is a typical 16-17 year old!
They have been at each other's throats over house chores, homework, boyfriends, part-time jobs...you name it! Most times that these arguments took place, my dad just stayed out of it or he would support Angèle's position because my mother is usually unreasonable & stubborn...even though she is wrong. (Sound familiar, eh fellas?! )
Well, I guess my mom just got sick of arguing with my cousin and was probably angry at my dad for usually taking Angèle's side...so she packed up and left while they were out of town. So now, she is living in an apt while my dad & cousin live at home.
Here is where I come into the picture. I have avoided discussing the "separation" issue when speaking with my mom or dad, even though I care about them very much. I still don't really know how I feel about the whole thing, so I am not taking any sides, but I am making an extra effort to remind my parents that I love them whenever I see or speak to them.
My confession does not really deal with the above issue though; what really troubles me is that my dad & my cousin are now alone...together. Over the last few years, my wife & I have noticed that sometimes my dad & Angèle seem to be a little too comfortable around each other. Angèle is a really pretty girl with VERY big boobs (36 DD), so she is usually getting "hit on" by lots of boys and even sometimes by older men. So, when I see my dad & her together AND when my dad tells me that he is having trouble with the fact the he is a man & Angèle is a woman...I am afraid to ask him if anything "immoral" is actually going on.
I feel like I have a duty as a son to assume that my father is perfect and to stand by him even if he isn't. But, I sometimes feel like I am betraying him by considering that he might be "crossing the line" with my cousin, whom he has legal custody over. But on the other hand, I feel like it is my duty as a human being and as Angèle's cousin, to make sure that she is safe and is not being "taken advantage of".
I am really mixed up about this and am ashamed for not doing something...anything...regardless of what the truth is. 
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*The end to no beginning...
*Take care, Leo
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Consis
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Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted February 09, 2005 08:22 PM |
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Do Nothing And Create Distance
My opinion stands as told from one mouth on one guy a long way away. Maybe I'm wrong or maybe I'm right. I don't know.
I say distance yourself from them. You are not responsible and you have no authority in their affairs. If they break the law then let someone else ring the police. If you interfere you will be hated, and if you continue a close relationship with any of them, people will question your character and integrity. I say do nothing and officially seperate/distance yourself from their being. You have a child coming. That is all that matters. The baby will need its father and your wife will need you. You have your own life now. Don't let them tarnish the name you have made for yourself.
My Dad sold drugs, brother used them, sister used them, and my mother used them but I never turned them in. They ruined the life of my baby sister and now she hates them. When adults do selfish things, children suffer the most. But you can't save the world. You must uphold your own responsibilities.
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Roses Are RedAnd So Am I
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Lich
Adventuring Hero
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posted February 09, 2005 08:27 PM |
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Edited By: Lich on 9 Feb 2005
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JFYI I have an awsome job I make 6.40 and hour right now wich is great here in WVa, also my car is a 93 chevy corsica. Manuel as for mykids and my daughter say what you want, you talk about mebeing cold hearted, well yeah you just tore mine out ofmy chest and stomped on it, you KNOW how hurt I am over my childrn, and I agree that was a total low blow. They are innocent in this leave them out of it! I am not mad about the comments but yeah hurt upset crying I am, my mother on the other hand yeah she is pretty mad....... I am changing my life as much as I can a person can't change over night, and I am getting the help and support I need. Again all I can say I am sorry for being a cold hearted *****.
And I'm so much beleaving what you say, KA. If you would care about your children, you should have done something to save your marriage and kids... So don't make everyone beleave you were so so innocent...
This time I stand for Aculias, I am sure I would never forgive KA or other person if it would hurt me so much. So he supposed to be mad at her. Hell, I am mad too, how she fooled me... What a fool I was back then, helped her, defended her... Bah... I guess now I would be ready to recognise fake people...
(To Aculias, I do not hold a grudge against you for a long time now)
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KittenAngel
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Lee's wifey
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posted February 10, 2005 12:37 PM |
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All I am going to say on this matter any further MY KIDS ARE INNOCENT LEAVE THEM OUT OF THIS!!!! As much problems as gan and I had he wil even tell you it was neither of our faults about our children.
@ Pan,
You really need to listen to both sides of a story before daming someone to hell. Yeah I screwed up big time, I hurt Manuel. There are a few things NO ONE knows because Manuel won't admit them. For one I asked 12 times in 4 day span for him to let me come back home, and all he said is what can I do to make you feel better, when I told him I missed home and my friend (david) was well would it make you feel better if he was out here, would that help you adjust, and I said yeah I guess it would be someone I knew, MANUEL AND DAVID, not me talked things out, and MANUEL not me sent David the money for his flight to california. I told Manuel 4 days and then 2 days before David arrived in California, I DID NOT want to be in california I wanted to go home, that I wasn't in love with him (manuel) the way I was before, he had changed and couldn't open up to me fully, and that I really didn't know him, again me asking to go home was ignored. When david arrived in california thing yes went to snow and back, Manuel and I were constantly fighting, and arguing,(because of the stress of David being in california and me wanting to go home) and one night things really went sour, Manuel and I were arguing and things got a little out of hand David went off on Manuel and vice versa. Well I eventually got that calmed down and things were kinda ok for a few days, then I got sick, started getting dizzy and crap and had to go to the emergency room( where my heart problems started). Well I wam dehydrated very badly, so they gave me fluids, well as I was leaving the hospital my mother called me to inform me that my grand father had died, I AGAIN asked to be sent home..... Well when we got home that night another fight between Manuel and David broke out, and AGAIN I stopped it. The next morning I woke up and there was a letter from Manuel and 100.00 asking david and I to leave, well I contacted Manuel and told him I wanted to talk about this, well when he came home, he and David again got into another fight, as they were arguing, Manuels brother and boss, came in the appartment and stopped that (which they should have beat the snot out of david but thats neither here nor there). As they were arguing and stuff I was in the bed room backing all of my things, and the stress of the situation caused me to faint, and after I came too the guys STILL arguing, I came out and screamed, GUYS STOP MY HEART can't take this!!!, and went back to packing, well Manuel went outside for a minute after telling daivd and I he was going to give us a week to try and find a job and/or to get home. Well Manuel comes back up to the appartment and gives DAVID 20 bucks to take me to the hospital, and David and I left. Well I never went to the hospital that night I went and walked and walked trying to figure things out. Well around 9:30 or so, I headed back to the appartment, to find all of my things out on the balcony. I moved my things then knocked on Manuels door to return some of his, and called my mother. From there on I sat outsid until the next morning so I could try and find help. I ended up at the phoenix program, and they sent david and I too Solano Mission in fairfield were I stayed until I left x-mas day to come home. No the thing everyone is dying to hear and know, NO DAVID AND I NEVER DONE ANYTHING WHILE I WAS IN MANUELS HOME. Long story short I am not the only one to blame in the situation I asked numorus times to go home, and everytime was ignored or overlooked. Thats it I will speake no more on this subject, it is all out in the open now. Again all I can say is I am sorry, and Manuel be expecting Mail in the next week or so.
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Never wear anything that panics
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Lich
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posted February 10, 2005 03:23 PM |
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WHAT A DRAMA ! I'M SOOO INOCENT ! I'M SOO POOR... OMG PEOPLE PLEASE PITTY ME... pffffhhh.... No matter what you'll say, people you betrayed will never beleave in you... Perhaps idelists, who still beleave in personality change will, new members will... but old ones will not. So you can just stop lying about stuff and move on.
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Aculias
Responsible
Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted February 10, 2005 03:45 PM |
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I cant believe you say all this in open.
WHen I actually apologised to you for once & you attack me like this & some are totally 100% LIES.
Stupid duh, I was fricken there , you cant lie to a person thats been right to your face basically.
You deserve whatever you got that came to you.
Can you stop being so dang mean for once in your whole life.
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Aculias
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Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted February 10, 2005 04:13 PM |
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Of all people you talked to Kitten, Pandora would vouch that you telling me you wanted to leave never even happened until the day you left my apartment.
You forget that convo you had with Pandora of all people you mention here.
I wonder if she has it saved somewhere OHH whats up now,trying to make me look all messed up.
ANother thang, why would I want to keep you here if I kicked you & David to the curb?
After all this time anyways we been working on this & you ecpect it all to totally be ok in 4 days, sheesh, next time you go for a BF< give the the ultimatime.
You have 4 days to tell me your whole life & story or theres no relationship.
Yea you are right i did go on my word about a week & then pack your stuff that day.
Good reason, our relationship that same day got in the open because YOUR SISTER SUGGESTED I tell my brother about whats been going on.
You know how many people found out & you know how many phone calls I got that you need to be out tonight orelse.
You forget, your in my state, not yours.
David should never mess with a personspossesions or life in thier own state.
Looks like your master plan backfired.
Hate to say but Davids too good for you.
Yea I changed, well because, all you talked about was David, all pictures you had up was about David, you spent more time on phone with David, Always David, & you expect me to just sit & take it, while we were supposed to start you over, I was going to work while you went to school & you didnt have to deal with the headaches.
You told me before you came here that you may be homesick & may be homesick.
You kept saying you miss home & DAVID DAVID DAVID.
You never ever never told me you wanted to go home, you said, to me that you would feel better if someone from WV (West Virginia) came for a bit. Then you be back to your old self.
"You would feel same if you moved out there Manuel, say if Mark or Sergio moved in for a bit.
Gosh AManda I was trying so hard to make you feel good I took so many risks including Flying David out here just so you could feel better & not depressed anymore.
David promissed he would not interfere with us & you convinced me yalls like brothers since all knew you knew each other your whole life.
Day hes supposed to come out you break it with me & yalls together that day.
COming out with all these crazy thangs I didnt do or was not ready to say about myself yet.
I been there for you, I always gave money when you needed it, I always supported you, regardless,I loved you, I would gave you such a great life where all you had to do was follow your dream.I would gave you anythang.
I was trust worthy, I never cheated in my life I was loyal, I was everythang a woman can ask for you tell me what i did that was so wrong to you.
SInce you like to bring stuff in the open.
Those are my confessions.
Why I do what I do I dont know.
Seems the worst a person you are, the better you get by in life.
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angelito
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proud father of a princess
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posted February 10, 2005 05:35 PM |
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Manuel...better stop open your whole life in public and let´s play some poker this evening..
IMHO, you both have reached a level where u should stop talking about too much private things, coz it reminds me more and more on the movie "rosewar" with M.Douglas and K.Turner..
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Nidhgrin
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baking cookies from stardust
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posted February 11, 2005 09:37 PM |
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If you approach a wolf you have wounded before,
it will show its teeth and bite if you come too close.
Just create some space between the two of you. Respect that distance until the other thrusts you enough to take one step closer towards you.
Most of all give each other time to let any wounds heal. Time may leave scars but in the end time heals even the deepest wounds.
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Conan
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Supreme Hero
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posted February 11, 2005 09:45 PM |
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I find people that keep talking about this situation a little ... bothersome. Please, if you wish to discuss this matter, open another thread. It's not fair for the original idea of the thread.
This is an option: Create another thread and we can get a mod to move the posts and discussion there. That way, we could keep the confessions thread (A noble idea) to what is really is instead of a personal problem between 2 HC members.
C'mon people, let's make this happen and give Léo some respect, that which he deserves for opening up his feelings in this thread.
If this keeps up, I'll ask léo to delete this thread and create a new one, save his posts (and others) and recreate them there with my help so we don't get penalized for multiple posts in a row.
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Aculias
Responsible
Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted February 13, 2005 05:22 AM |
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You know what I dont like it either & you dont think I get annoyed because she likes to make her life public.
She already got me to lose alot online & in RL.
You Darn right I am going to stand up to her because I am not going to be lied about to make me look like trash.
To be a real man I know the truth & I just need to just see it & ignore it.
Thats what I am going to do orless somethang really off the wall happens.
Trust me CONAN, you annoy me writing that but if you think your annoyed, why dont you stand in my shoes for a second, Instead talking your smack, like you been doing.
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