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Lady_Milena
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posted February 15, 2005 09:22 PM |
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Bluntly taken from my online diary
I ranted and ranted and ranted in my online diary. After I posted it under the title "Why People Piss Me OFF.", I wasn't happy enough because there is no fame in a diary. Then I thought I should put it up here for discussion. "Sometimes the truth hurts less than comfort lies." Do you agree with it or do you keep your silence too?
I also want to apologize because there are names mentioned there and they are not members of the HC (ie people who you know).
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"Sometimes the truth hurts less than comfort lies."
That's what I have currently under 'name' in IRC. It's not without a good reason. Of course, the one incentive that drove me when I changed my name to said above was an occasion with of course, Mr Evan.
So, I write this beautiful (but long) story 'Legend for the first oak tree'. It is inspired by said man and is dedicated to him. He didn't ask me to do it, true, but if that was YOU, wouldn't you at least feel flattered if someone makes up such a complicated, long and profound story? Won't you be interested in reading it, to see an image that you know is not you but you have a lot to do with it? Well, if anyone did that for me, I'd be *dying* to read the next chapter of the story.
"Sometimes the truth hurts less than comfort lies"
Evan and I haven't really discussed the story. All I know is he read the prologue and all I got was "I liked it" as a comment. Nothing about chapter 1. It went unnoticed. I then sent him chapter 2, after 6 weeks of writing. It was just today that I saw I didn't actually include the txt file! That provided that on Sunday I asked him "did you get the chapter" and he said he did. I really don't understand why you should say such a lie... when you haven't even cared to look.
I'm kinda used to this attitude but it pisses me off. How hard it is really to spare people some aggravation and say no? How hard is it to be just plain honest with them? I'd be hurt less if Evan said "I haven't looked" or "Well, I won't be reading the story, I'm sorry". The truth would hurt me less than the comfort lies I'm left with.
I talk and talk and talk and I do and do and do and all I get it silence. It should be comforting but it despares me.
Evan is the most vivid case but alas not the one and only. My ******** of a father is the same. My mother asked him if he would consider going back to her and never did he give her a honest reply that would have spared her so much pain. And now when it's clear everything is over and that the papers must get ready soon, every time I touch the topic, he starts talking about the weather, my computer, about movies, about ANYTHING but what I ask him. Tell you what, my precious father, I don't give a DAMN about the weather or the computer. Just give me a straight answer and hang the hell up! I got other, more important things to do than listen to ... this. Don't give me fake silence, give me the truth!
Even the Dreams company did it today. I asked them a simple question: are you guys married or not? How simple is it to say "NO". Instead I get questions of the kind "Do you think we're THAT immature?" I think nothing, I asked a question and it calls for a simple answer, Chrissakes.
People LOVE pissing me off.
Which again returns me to the point of why people do it. "Comfort lies", there's the key to the issue. Innocently and naively, foolishly I may add, people believe that lies may hurt others less than the truth. It's for COMFORT. It's as if I won't find out how matters really stand, as if I will never know you lied. There are simple ways to check and then I'll know you lied even you it was your best intentions to protect me. You don't comfort me, my dears, you just hurt me more.
Often comfort lies bring no comfort at all. They only bring frustration and pain. As the Wizard's second rule goes, 'sometimes the best intentions can cause the greatest harm'.
I feel tired by this 'I won't hurt you, I won't tell you', which in its own way is hurting.
No news is good news, silence is promising but after all... do I not have the right to choose, to choose hurting words over silence, the truth over comfort lies?
I guess it's not my think to say. The silence to follow shall only confirm my words.
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Dingo
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posted February 16, 2005 05:17 AM |
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Tell you what, my precious father, I don't give a DAMN about the weather or the computer. Just give me a straight answer and hang the hell up!
By not bluntly telling your father to get to the point, you put yourself into a internal comfort lie.
The easiest lies to neglect, are the ones within yourself.
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