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Aculias
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posted May 24, 2008 01:54 AM |
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Well mostly Tay what I meant was that some cant control how they are.
Being loud naturally.
Over Hyper naturally or just having problems that you need medication for.
Yea basically if she can walk outside alone then she can control her actions.
It is an excuse usually.
You got a mind, that means you got choices.
Quit showing off in front of your friends & be yourself basically.
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la_ultima_hora
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posted May 24, 2008 02:51 AM |
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yes i realise im a 7 yr old in a 17yr olds body.
thank you very much everyone for those not so UP LIFTING comments.
fukkkk
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Aculias
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posted May 24, 2008 03:35 AM |
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Well shoot man.
Maybe if you had some uplifting stories, we will tell you some uplifting things.
Maybe you should meet up with William & try to have some different fun.
Sounds like it would be better then what your doing.
Why dont you quit throwing a hissy fit & grow up.
Your 17 it's about that time to step into adulthood & start learning.
At least try.
Who cares anyways. You wont listen to reason anyways.
I for one would like to hear some positive stuff.
I cant wait to hear some good stories.
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Azagal
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posted May 24, 2008 05:40 AM |
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Well La_ultima_etc. while these comments may not be uplifting there are most certainly correct. One doesn't need to know you personally or anything to judge your current situation correctly. And reality isn't uplifting in your case.
If you come here to tell your stories and get loads of "awwww poor thing that's so horrible" I (personally) think you're at the wrong adress. If you'd really want help you wouldn't be looking for pity but actually start changing your life.
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Why dont you quit throwing a hissy fit & grow up.
Your 17 it's about that time to step into adulthood & start learning.
At least try.
Who cares anyways. You wont listen to reason anyways.
That's all there is to say.
I mean what do you do in your life right now to actually improve your life?? Probably nothing (don't give me the therapist answer people before have already pointed out how you're not even taking that serious). It's all up to you.
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OmegaDestroyer
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Fox or Chicken?
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posted May 24, 2008 09:51 AM |
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What do you expect to get when you throw a rock at a hornet's nest? You're getting to an age where you have to start thinking about the consequences of your decisions. If your story is correct (you'll have to excuse my doubts. I've become quite supsicious of just about everything in the last 3 years) and you got banned from a shopping mall, that should have been a sign that you need to change your lifestyle.
Oh, and mentally retarded is quite outdated. The perferred terms are developmentally disabled or person with a learning disability.
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The giant has awakened
You drink my blood and drown
Wrath and raving I will not stop
You'll never take me down
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The_Gootch
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Kneel Before Me Sons of HC!!
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posted May 24, 2008 07:51 PM |
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There are a few things that are clear here.
First, your capacity for selective story telling is incredible. It is so incredible even guys on here have picked up on it.
Why aren't you living at home?
Why did your parents disown you?
Doesn't matter really. I don't think you have the capacity to be honest right now. I'm guessing, you are in an incredibly selfish, pleasure-seeking phase right now. You are seeking pleasure in the form of boyfriends(you change them more often than I change my underwear), drugs like pot and probably some harder stuff, and in general doing what you want to do and damn with the consequences for it.
I bet you dollars to donuts you're not making any plans for moving out of your friend's place. I can just hear now the empty promises to get a job to help contribute and pay for the food you're eating and the cigarettes you're smoking
I'm not here to open your eyes to your behavior. I'm really just here to unburden my conscience in telling you that most often we are responsible for the unhappiness in our lives. I smell blame games with you hora. You may think your situation is unique, it isn't.
Don't be so arrogant as to believe noone could possibly relate to you or understand what you're going through. Shoot, I had a sister who was out of control. She gave the same lines, she kept acting out, drugging, gang-banging, and running away. State took custody of her because she was tearing the family apart. Was she in pain? Sure she was. But twenty years after the fact she'll tell you it was just her wanting to do what she wanted to do. She has kids by two different men, her marriage lasted all of 3 weeks (long enough for her to get pregnant), and she has no stability to offer her children.
So, you were saying how things were going downhill? Oh, and I particularly loved the part about acting tough and throwing a can before turning into a chickens*** when you got confronted. That was priceless. I really hope your friends see you for the trouble you are and avoid you until you are able to come to your senses about what you're doing, grow up a bit, and give a genuine apology to them.
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friendofgunnar
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able to speed up time
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posted May 24, 2008 08:09 PM |
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lol
ditto the first 5 paragraphs
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mvassilev
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posted May 25, 2008 03:13 AM |
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A while ago I wroteQuote:
Why not just rename this thread "Emo moments"?
And now it happened.
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Aculias
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posted May 25, 2008 04:09 AM |
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I know it probally feels like crap when you here everyone getting down on you.
Basically just do the best you can & being 17 is still young 7 your still learning about who you really are.
Experimenting different drugs & men.
Most women & guys been there & done that.
Cant blame us for being harsh.
What you need is to go through some hardships so you can learn how hard this world really is.
You remind me of me also when i was young.
It sucks making bad mistakes because sometimes you lose a friend forever or you lose a relationship & you lose the person you have become.
Mistakes are made to be learned.
Example i am sure you wont throw anything at a person again.
Learn & I want to hear some positivity next time.
Not know crying about how mean we are.
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mvassilev
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posted May 25, 2008 04:39 AM |
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As someone who is 16, I feel that my own experiences, limited as they are, have merit in this case. I must say that I have never experimented with drugs or members of the opposite (or same) sex. I do not hate myself or my family. I know people like that, though. They are kind of like a train wreck, really. All you can do is stare.
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william
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posted May 25, 2008 04:40 AM |
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Edited by william at 05:13, 25 May 2008.
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The_Gootch, everything you wrote there is pretty much accurate.
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make up a dull day, Fritter and
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The_Gootch
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Kneel Before Me Sons of HC!!
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posted May 29, 2008 07:23 PM |
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An update on my sister-in-law
It seems my brother's wife's condition was worse than I understood. I decided to leave him alone, figuring that no news was good news. Well, he called me Sunday and told me she just woke up from her coma.
She'd been out since Tuesday.
How did this happen? Who knows? Uterine infections are not uncommon for pregnant women. But when they do happen, usually the body expels the infected material in the form of premature births. This didn't happen with my brother's wife though. Instead, her entire 15 pound ecosystem stayed within her body and she went into septic shock.
I told my brother I could come up to stay with him if he needed me. Predictably, he declined and explained that she was going to be coming home from the hospital and they were going to need time to heal.
I am terribly sorry for the both of them. I know what it's like to feel I might lose a wife, and those endless days when she was out.... How unspeakably wan with care.
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antipaladin
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posted May 29, 2008 08:21 PM |
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regarding 2 things: Gootchs comments on the la ultima's behivor.
100% right.
Esspacily the line saying were responcible for our own lifes.
you see I read this great book how not to fall for victom game. you might consider yourself a victom,and it might be so,butinstead of lagging out and getting a job at 17 try to rebuild your life. I know what is working and paying for theese ciggerts that you smoke. I know what is also STUDYING and having commitments for the home im living in.
Yeah i have problams with my family too,but im a bit older,and i have a bit more expearnce,trust me,my problams are much worse,and i have feld the place more then once,but i also found it posible to forgvie and forget,maybe in some of the ocasions It was my fault too. Maybe in some of the ocaisons its your fault as well. You just need a third party praphes? or some time to think about it,the best you can do,is praphes talk to help,and i dont mean a frindes mom or aunt ,but a therapist,or a sociale worker. Its not a shame.
Gootch,I can feel you so too,losing someone or helping someone who did or was in the way too is just as scary,you did the best you could for both of them,and you ware brave for them,they sure respect what you've done,i know i would.
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Setitetart
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Reality check....
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posted June 03, 2008 06:16 AM |
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As per the first line of this thread, I have something I could share that doesn’t involve gangs or delinquent behaviors.
Back in December of 2006, my father found out that he had small cell lung cancer.
Through several months of chemotherapy and radiation he was found to be in remission in August 2007. No sign of his lung cancer to be found.
He had, for all intent and purpose, beaten the thing that no one really seems to recover from…
'When we long for life without difficulties, remind us that oaks grow strong in contrary winds and diamonds are made under pressure.'
-Peter Marshall
Our joy…MY joy…was short lived.
In March of this year they found that no only had his lung cancer came back with a vengeance, but it was in his brain as well.
You see, my father and I, while we can pick up where we left off, have never been in close proximity to each other. When my parents divorced, I lived with my mother, at 2 years old I couldn’t really make the choice to be with him, and even once I reached an age I could’ve…there were a lot of factors as to why it was never such a good idea. Our relationship, however loose it was, it was good. Our worlds distinctly apart, his and mine and sometimes we met in the middle.
Pick up where we left off.
Such as it is sometimes…
He called to let me know that he was moving to South Carolina so that the Cancer Treatment Centers of America could help him.
If I was going to see my dad, I had to do it NOW.
In April, come hell or high-water…brake replacements, craptastic weather, and whatever else the Gods that be wanted to throw at me…I made the trip to Minnesota to see my father, this man I hadn’t seen in 7 years, and before that…I couldn’t even tell you how long it had been.
As I looked at my father and around the table at my 3 younger siblings, it dawned on me that each and every one of them had all had more time with my dad than I had growing up.
For the briefest of moments I was jealous. Because as much as I love my siblings, they had something I haven’t had.
Time.
Because here we were, Dad is sick, and now I must cram everything I wanted to say or do in a matter of days or hours rather than the lifetime I should have had.
There are grandchildren to see and one more to meet…
All of these things we wanted to do and places we wanted to go.
He and I…
All this lost time, never to be recovered, and memories so scant they barely make up a years worth of time.
It just doesn’t seem fair.
*I can hear my mother…”Life isn’t fair, get over it”*
But I bid him farewell on his move, kissed and hugged him as if it was the last time I would be able to, and promised him to keep everyone together.
So…he made it to his new home in South Carolina and immediately the Cancer Treatment Centers went about trying to help my dad.
But unfortunately, they are unable to do anything for him.
A 15% - 35% chance of recovery.
The radiation on his brain has failed to downsize the tumor that continues to give him seizures.
Stokes have racked his body and stolen his mobility.
I am losing my dad, and I am unable to do anything but stand by, wringing my hands in the hopes that some God or entity will hear my pleas to spare him…
If not for me, then for my children that only really know their grandfather through my words and a few pictures.
He called me last week to tell me that they were taking him in for brain surgery to attempt to remove the tumor.
So today, on my 10th wedding anniversary, my father was wheeled in for brain surgery at 7 am to attempt to remove the tumor.
I tried to call him when I woke up at 5 am to tell him that I love him…all those things I should have said.
But I was too late, they’d already left for the hospital, and when I called my dad’s wife’s phone, she told me they’d already taken him away for prep.
I seriously felt as if someone has socked me in the gut. This lump in my throat that told me I was too late and I might not ever have the chance to say anything to him again.
All last week was phone-tag between dad and I…all I have now is a message on my phone from him.
I was called at 3 pm to let me know that he’d made it through the surgery, the doctors believe that they were able to remove all of the tumor, and that my father would probably be waking up t some point tomorrow…
So why am I so terrified? So fearful?
I should be relieved…maybe even hopeful…grateful that my father had the strength to make it through even that.
And yet, my realistic self won’t let me be.
I am this close >---< to losing my dad and I really don’t know what to do, what to say or how to react. All I know with any certainty is that if something happens to him, it’s going to be rough…
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"Do you think we should drive a stake through his heart, just in case?"
~ Peter Lorre to Vincent Price at Bela Lugosi's funeral
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antipaladin
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posted June 03, 2008 10:00 AM |
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If you need anything...
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violent_flower
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Almost there.
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posted June 03, 2008 06:25 PM |
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This is a song that Stevie Nicks sung to her father live and it just made me cry. As several of us here have had the misfortune of losing parents to death or to unforeseen circumstances, we get through it or we die inside. I know because I have known you for years that your will take this hard and it will devastate your life. Between your efforts of keeping long lost relatives together and your own family, you are reaching the end of your rapidly rope.
I will be here for you and if your father passes from this horrible tragedy I will come with you and together we will say farewell. I will be there to hold you up while you sob, light your hundredth cigarette, be completely there just for you in your time of need, and most importantly watch you grow as a person from this whole experience. You’re like a sister to me Tay and I will always be within an ear shot to support you in these times.
Landslide
I took my love, I took it down
Climbed a mountain and I turned around
I saw my reflection in the snow covered hills
till the landslide brought me down
Oh, mirror in the sky
What is love
Can the child within my heart rise above
Can I sail thru the changing ocean tides
Can I handle the seasons of my life
Well, Ive been afraid of changing
cause Ive built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Children get older
Im getting older too
Oh, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well the landslide will bring it down
If you see my reflection in the snow covered hills
Well maybe the landslide will bring it down
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Setitetart
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posted June 04, 2008 07:18 AM |
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If you need anything...
Much thanks for that darling. For now let's just keep all of our fingers and toes crossed with hope for my dad to pull up the strength to get through this, and if not...that he exits this life with dignity and the knowledge that a lot of people really love and cherish him.
Thank you so much...
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This is a song that Stevie Nicks sung to her father live and it just made me cry. As several of us here have had the misfortune of losing parents to death or to unforeseen circumstances, we get through it or we die inside. I know because I have known you for years that your will take this hard and it will devastate your life. Between your efforts of keeping long lost relatives together and your own family, you are reaching the end of your rapidly rope.
I believe that I know the song you are referring to...I should probably pull it up and have a listen to it. One song that really made me take pause this last week was from the Pretenders..."Stand by You"...I had to take a minute and pull over it got to me so much.
Funny how music can lift you to joy one minute and reduce a person to emotions the next...
Losing a parent..or both of your parents...ANY loved one can be devastating. I caught a glimpse of that when David lost his mom and I was shocked at the strength and emotion in my own reaction. I can imagine that losing either of my parents...yes...even my mom...has the potential to be even more so. I WILL take it hard, because even now I feel that I haven't done all that I could do or made as much of an effort as I think I should have all these years to keep in better contact even though any sane person would say I'd done and said above and beyond reasonable effort.
I've come close to reaching the end of my rope only to find an extension in my pocket to tie on a few more yards...Sure I am frayed and knotted sometimes but I always have more rope. 
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I will be here for you and if your father passes from this horrible tragedy I will come with you and together we will say farewell. I will be there to hold you up while you sob, light your hundredth cigarette, be completely there just for you in your time of need, and most importantly watch you grow as a person from this whole experience. You’re like a sister to me Tay and I will always be within an ear shot to support you in these times.
You mean more to me than words could ever properly express.
Somehow thank you never seems to be enough...
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"Do you think we should drive a stake through his heart, just in case?"
~ Peter Lorre to Vincent Price at Bela Lugosi's funeral
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Mytical
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posted June 04, 2008 08:27 AM |
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Cancer is a horrible thing, and I really do not know why such a thing exsists. I am sorry for the hard times you are going through, I may not be able to be there physically, but I am here if you need to talk.
The situation I went through was a bit different then yours. Me and my brother were always close. He saved my life a couple of times, and I was able to spend a lot of time with him. It's never enough time, however. All my family expressed their regrets that they had not spent more time with him, and I couldn't find the words. It seems a bit lame, but it's never enough time.
Charish the time you have with the ones you love, whatever time you get. Because even spending every waking moment with him for 5 months straight seemed too short of time. Being close family we lived and shared expenses for years together. It wasn't enough time.
I am sorry that you don't have more time with your father. Try to make up in quality what you may not get in quantity. I hope things turn out ok, and that you have many long years to say what you wanted to say. Be strong, and know that people will have you in their thoughts.
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winterfate
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posted June 04, 2008 09:36 AM |
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@Setitetart: I second what Misty has said.
I know we haven't talked AT all, but if you need someone to talk to, I've been told that I'm a good listener.
@la_ultima_hora: This may come off as harsh, but its the truth. Here goes:
I totally agree with the general consensus about your situation. I understand that you may have problems beyond your control, but you can't just give up and use your "mental issues" as a crutch. Also, like Omega said, you have to think about the consequences of your actions. If you truly want to get better, you'll find the way. You can't blame other people for things you have brought upon yourself, or are bringing on yourself.
It takes a lot of will to tell yourself that you won't complain anymore about your situation and that you're ready to change. It's going to be tough, but it'll be worth it in the end. If you keep living your life like this, one day (I solemnly hope not) you're going to personify your username (because la última hora means the final hour in Spanish).
I'm sure no one in this forum wants to see that happen.
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If you supposedly care about someone, then don't push them out of your life. Acting like you're not doing it doesn't exempt you from what I just said. - Winterfate
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antipaladin
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posted June 05, 2008 10:49 PM |
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For some reason being brave is not easy,you feel like the world as you know around you callapses, you begine you leash out,lose controll,the same controll you strife to keep. what is our place in here,and in the big picture,fate ? Destiny,i keep wondering if my point in life is to encourge people to be brave in moments of greif,and to be helpfull,but i find myself lost when it happens to me.
Every one fights there own demons,but i fight other people demons as well.
And i fail to win mine. "How do you keep survivng those" "Thenks for you help" but in real time,i find myself alone in the darkness,with a flashlight that requires two betteris,while i have only one. Why we ask our self? who are we kidding? the circule of life is very simple,we are born to die,suffer from the never ending crisis that is our life,only to wish not to be ourselfs.
Pointless i thought,was the attempt of being sad,strife for the best,yet it always strikes you unperperd.
So yet,i rise,delusional as i might be,aware of it all.Ignorant and indiffernt to the fact ,i take myself in my hands,and I rise,to face the threats of everydays life.
And im not afride of being hurt anymore.
And im not afride of staying alone anymore.
Couse there is more light,then darkness in my life.
And so is in yours,so listen to me,and live bravely!
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