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jebus
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Time to vent
I was originally going to post this in Guitar Guy's "downhill times" but didn't want to taint it with my bitterness...)
Well it seems even the Jester can go downhill sometimes....
I woke up Sunday morning at the cottage to the background discussion between my dad and gf in regards to a message left on my dad's cell in regards to my already sick uncle's health.
( a little background )
my uncle is diabetic and after bypass after bypass and operations to restore circulation in his legs he finally reached a point that the infection foot was soo bad that they would have to amputate a few toes. After this was done, they soon realized that it wasn't enough... a second operation was therefor necessary to remove half his foot.
They finally decided that they would have to remove everything from the knee down. The healing was slow but encouraging and then there was another incident...
He suffered what they think was a cardiac arrest while in the washroom and blacked out... they suspect that his kidneys are also a factor in this....
back to my story....
so I wake up to the discussion taking place...
my aunt (not my uncle's wife) left my dad a message letting him know that something happened and that the doctors don't feel that my uncle will make it through the day.... now what to do...I haven't seen in him a few years and he's over 5 hours away... do I jet to see him one last time? if i go, we'll i be able to see him, talk to him??? Finally when I get home I find out that his condition was stable and that he seems to be pulling through... (thank god) but what happened to the "won't last the day"? Don't say **** like that unless you know for sure that that's the case!!! Definetely don't let my emotionnaly unstable aunt leave us messages with her crying over the phone!!! Half the family was frantic!!!
So last night I got a chance to talk to my aunt (my godmother) and hear from her that things are looking better (not great) but better but my uncle is in intensive care and can't have guests!! (I was finally able to take a deep breath.)
This morning at work I was discussing it with my cousin and was off the phones for a bit when my supervisor comes by and starts getting on me about not working... I tried to explained to her the situation and her reaction to our family crisis was:"when you're at work your priority should be work above all else!!"
(I almost tore her a new one right then and there.....
I am now at home... sitting in my anger to the insult)
side note:
Im dissapointed in myself for the following reason:
when I was coming home from the cottage I wasn't sad by the fact that I may never get a chance to say goodbye to my Godfather... I was straight pissed off at all the family who have monopolized every possible moment in the last years for anybody else to have a chance to see him.
I've always been patient and understood that they may not always want company but everytime I let them know that I'd like to visit (when it's convenient for them) and to let me know when I can come, I find out that some other member and their family have jumped ahead....
Christ even when they are in town, you can't see'em since people book up their time!!!
(I finally said to myself that it's not healthy to think of his "potential" passing with a feeling of bitterness towards other family members)
This falls into more of what's been going on around me lately that I'd like to get off my chest:
what is it with people these days with their blindness and hyprocricy??
I have to work with people who are biaised, prejudice and clearly demonstrate behaviours of preferential treatment... but when I express myself, I get disciiplined...
When dealing with personal issues I have to deal with people who expect me to take responsibility for my actions but apologize for the actions of others....
I have to tiptoe around my friends for fear of insulting, offending or upsetting someone when discussing trivial online issues...
Don't make me believe that you accept me and then turn your back on me when I dissagree with you...
I have to sit back and bite my tongue when someone is acting like a child for fear of, once again, losing a friend over something stupid.
I have to sit back, day after day, watching the hyporicrits get rewarded for lenghty life altering and personality evolving posts over and over again, while others complain about spam but alow this "preacher" posts go on and on in threads dedicated to other issues... I get the priviledge to sit by and watch the biggest two faced doubld standard hypocrity be congradulated on his "cut and paste" methods to online two-facedness....
Im tired....
Im tired of your blindness....
Im tired of your selfishness...
Im tired of your lies....
don't talk about being yourself and hidding behind your pc...
Im tired of people taking their **** out on me....
Im tired of your lazzyness....
don't displace your issues onto me...
stop trying to convince me Im a bad person, that I need to evolve, that "I don't respect you"...
Have the balls to say your wife doesn't want you to hang around with me instead of telling me that you "can't be my friend because I don't want to evolve...
Im tired of dealing with yours, your spouses, your parents, my parents, our families and our friends
lack of maturity.
you want me to evolve??? it started with your departure...
you want me to respect you and your home???
open your eyes to see what TRUE respect is...
I opened my doors to you and your family and at the slightest mishap you slam your doors in my face...
But most of all Im tired of keeping quiet.... Im tired of being affraid of the consequences of my words...
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pandora
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The Chosen One
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posted July 04, 2005 09:22 PM |
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Bonus applied for the honesty and openness of the post.
Its difficult to reply here as I do not know what you were looking for by way of replies. If this is just a vent post - then you likely want none.
With regards to the situation, I will say that I felt quite uncomfortable reading through it and that is why I didn't reply. It seemed to me that it was something not meant for my eyes, and I felt rather like a creepy voyeur...
If I were to give one bit of advice to you, it would be to let this anger go. Its been poison, it seems lately that its everywhere. It can't possibly be making you feel good to hang on to all of this. If it means giving up on your friendship, then do it - all this venom isn't going to get it back anyways.
It seems clear that you are hurt, and are just trying as much as you can to hurt back. The only result to that is that you will hurt more.
{modhat}I censored the Words that were not, as I am unsure if you had read the last warning before typing this open. This will be the last warning about censoring though.
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"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
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jebus
Promising
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TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 04, 2005 09:31 PM |
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My words encompass many aspects of my life...
present friends and lost ones as well... I think the message was clear in the sense that im fed up...
I can't "let go" of my hate (you like the starwars don't you  ) or my anger without expressing it first. On too many occasions I've let things slide and Im sick of being walked all over due to this passiveness. I mentioned no names and if anyone feels that this is directed to them, it may be because they are guilty of the actions i've expressed...
The bigger problem is Im starting to see these things everywhere... and to learn to express myself (even online to a forum of people that hardly know me) is in the end, a beginning for me.
Personnally I think that this "vague" method was less damaging then my previous idea to expose some of the behaviours that are angering me...
I was able to get it off my chest. I still wish there was a way to show others what I see.
( I will watch my language for now on...)
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pandora
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The Chosen One
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posted July 04, 2005 09:39 PM |
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I personally would prefer a direct approach, chasing me around all the forums I mod in taking shots at me must be exhausting 
If you would like to talk on email, or just send me a long list of all the reasons you've been aching to blast me, I'm open to that. Its easier to deal with a direct approach.
The thing is that I have noticed such a drastic change in you lately, and I know its coming from all this anger. You may not even realize how much of a change it has been lately.
I'm not saying anything I've said to you out of anger either, its more out of concern.
Just try to remember what happened to Anakin... I mean, he was the chosen one - but all that anger led to him getting burnt really bad...
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"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
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jebus
Promising
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TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 04, 2005 10:13 PM |
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I personally would prefer a direct approach, chasing me around all the forums I mod in taking shots at me must be exhausting
The thing is that I have noticed such a drastic change in you lately, and I know its coming from all this anger. You may not even realize how much of a change it has been lately.
Pan,
I haven't blasted you in this thread! I think our arguements in TT are constructive (for the most part) and I had tried to edit my last post here but then forgot.
I appreciate that you were uncomfortable posting here but I am glad you did. It's important for me to know how you and others feel.
And truth be told... I didn't "take a shot at you" until you quoted me or disciplined me!
Don't forget that everyone thought Anakin was this GREAT potential Jedi and it turned out that he was evil... maybe you can take your analogy and reverse to see my side of the coin.
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"You went over my helmet??"
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pandora
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The Chosen One
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posted July 04, 2005 10:24 PM |
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I didn't mean in this thread, I meant here there and everywhere Perhaps I am just taking you the wrong way, I don't know.
The final thing I'll say about the personal arguement is that I will not take sides. I have my opinions based on what I read, but I will not get involved. I will also not let my feelings have any influence here at HC or in how I treat either of you.
Anyways, I really have no problems with you that we haven't talked about, but if there are any you wish to talk to me about send an email 
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"In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends."
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jebus
Promising
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TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 04, 2005 10:45 PM |
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I wouldn't want to be the cause of another "private emails" thread!!
I think this thread was a good way for you (or anybody who would like to join) to discuss some of the things i've mentioned... it was however mostly for members to read and maybe understand where Im comming from these days...
The "personal argument" may have seemed to dominate my theme but keep in mind that other "none knowers or the argument" would not necessarily associate my comments to anything in particular...(or maybe they would, who knows)
I think HC has become a personal journal for many members but a journal with benefits... instead of jotting down my feelings in a book and hidding it under my bed, never to be read or understood by anyone, i have the priviledge of getting feedback from perspectives from around the globe.
(that and I got a little red star out of it too!!)
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seriously though Pan, id like to thank you for your patience today... I gave (and am giving) you a rough time today! I've appreciated your honesty as always.
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Khayman
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posted July 05, 2005 04:25 AM |
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A partial answer to your questions...
Hi Jebus!
First, I do hope that you will make the 5 hour trip to see your uncle when you have the next opportunity. In my few years of experience in this life, I have learned that it is sometimes best not to wait until 'something happens' or a 'better time' in order to see a loved one, especially when they are older and in declining health. Be assertive, be aggressive, but don't be apologetic for your wanting to see them, because regardless of who else may be there when you arrive, your time and efforts were of good intentions and even greater importance.
Now, I won't touch the personal issue you have going on with some other un-named HC members. However, I will address your sitation at work. You see, Jebus, another thing that I have learned is that many people believe that the world actually revolves around them. You see, they feel this insatiable need to be the focal point of every situation and conversation. Otherwise, if they are not the center of attention, then they are not the least bit interested in being involved, because their need for attention is not being met. Unfortunately, sometimes you think you are being a good friend by listening to their problems, and you may well be a good friend and listener. However, once the time comes for them to lend you an ear to listen or shoulder to cry upon, then they have no idea how to be a friend, except of course, to turn the conversation around to suit their needs. Some people are actually aware of their selfishness and inability to listen, while there are even many more people who are just oblivious when it comes to listening and being a true friend.
It may take you a while to sift through the masses, but eventually you will come across those people who are truly willing to be a great friend and listener with the uncommon ability to realize when their friends are in need.
EDIT: Story removed for sake of not distracting from seriousness of this topic. I was unaware of the severity of this member situation.
So, Jebus, after all that, please make sure you get over there to see your uncle as soon as he can have visitors. Oh yeah, and by the way...Thanks for listening, Mate!
Love, Peace, and Happiness!
EDIT: I hope that you two can work things out as to not have to force one of you to leave or make any drastic changes.
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Leo_Lion
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The 5th Element & 6th Sense!
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posted July 05, 2005 10:23 AM |
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Martin (I'm not going to call you a fictional name when discussing serious personal matters), I don't know if you seriously wanted me to respond to any of your comments above or to any of your other Posts (in various other Threads throughout HC), for that matter, OR if you were simply making another unfortunate attempt to discredit me. That is why I have finally decided to make one of your favourite "long-winded Posts" in order to address the concerns that seem to be eating you up inside.
Before I get to that, however, I must admit that I was completely surprised to see how you blatantly brought YOUR personal issues with me out into the open like this. Considering that you were the one who asked me to delete my Posts in the nOOb Tournament Thread, when our friendship took a turn for the worse, I really hoped that you would have been able to remain civil about being at HC with me, after I ended our friendship.
For a while it actually seemed like things were going well. You did your thing, I did mine, and we kept our distance. I even took the time, once in a while, to suggest to Pandora that you should receive a QP somewhere for your ongoing contribution to HC. I even joined the Star Wars Thread and discussed different aspects of the movies with you, Terje, and a few others. But it seems like that is when things started going sour once again.
At first, you started making a few tosses at my & my wife's expense and then you progressed to quick & indirect criticisms of my various Posts, habits, opinions, etc. Throughout all of this, I usually didn't reply & never argued; I simply chose to follow Valeryi's advice, which can be found in the FAQ under How to Deal with Offences, Philosophy of Anger, & What do others think of me and how can I change it?). But lately, you've been writing slanderous comments and "long-winded Posts" trying discredit me or get me penalized. It's one thing to objectively criticize me (as Guitarguy did for my overly aggressive jokes of Varuas & Guenivere...which I thanked him for and apologized), but it's a totally different thing to campaign other members & Mods to give me a -QP, have some of my best Posts deleted, or to pass me over for becoming a Mod.
No one knows this, because I haven't told anyone, but it really hurts me to read these things. I can handle criticism, because I can learn from it and improve, but personal attacks & harassment are a completely different thing. Tonight, for example, I was physically ill from reading all of your hateful Posts about me. Those take a lot more energy to overcome and a lot more time to forget. I do, however, eventually succeed in doing this...I just wish that you could have done the same.
I mean, what has gotten into you lately? I thought that by ending our friendship, we would have both moved on and focused on the road ahead. At least, that is what I have been doing! Unfortunately, it seems like you are still dwelling on the past. And once again, it looks like I will have to be the one who takes action in order to stop this nonsense.
This is starting to get all too familiar for me. When I decided to end our friendship, one of the reasons I did so, was because I was tired of being disrespected by you over & over again. I was appalled to see how my best-friend, my Best-man, and the soon-to-be Godfather of my child, was taking every opportunity to try and "knock me down" or cast doubt on my achievements. The worst part of it, was when we talked about this, you not only refused to apologize for this behaviour, but you actually tried to turn it around on me & my wife...like it was ALL our fault!
I admit that I played a part in destroying and then ending our friendship, but you seem oblivious to the fact that you were just as responsible (if not more) as I was. And unfortunately, it seems like you are playing the same role once again, here on HC.
Why are you doing this...why now? Is it because you have always been jealous of my success @ HC (even if you won't admit it to yourself)? Maybe it's because you are angry that I've been getting along with your new buddies on HC (Guitarguy, Rebirth, Niceguy, etc) and @ work (your cousin & others). Is it because you enjoyed criticising me here-there-&-everywhere, but when I finally took a stand and explained myself in a clear & thought-out Post, you were left "outplayed"? Is it a combination of your personal problems that you described in your 1st Post in this Thread and others that I don't know about? Or maybe it's due to all of the above OR none of the above.
Frankly, I'm not sure and I almost don't care! I'm not your friend anymore and I try to stay clear of you as much as possible on HC & @ work. Nothing has happened in our workplace (and I hope that it remains so), but why would you go through all this trouble to hunt down my Posts and attempt to expose & magnify all of my faults & weaknesses on HC? I don't understand why you would do all of this, when I am usually the first one to openly admit that I make mistakes and that I screw up. I guess that you are still taking every opportunity to try and "knock me down" and cast doubt on my achievements...just in a different environment now.
Well, as I said earlier, I guess that I will have to be the one who does something about this. Although I had hoped that we could still both enjoy HC, after our friendship ended; it is now clear that this is no longer possible. I have considered sticking to the Bard's Glade Pyre & Other Games Exist Too, but I suspect that it wouldn't be long until you "came after me" in those Forums, as well. Let's face it, HC just isn't big enough for the both of us. That is why, I have decided to leave Heroes Community!
I figured that since you were the one who introduced me to this site, in the first place, you should be the one who stays. After I finish this Post, and edit it to my liking, I will log off for a week. Then, I will return and systematically remove all traces of my existence here. That way, you will be able to enjoy all of HC's various Forums, without having to struggle to "hold down your lunch".
I also applied for a transfer at work yesterday, and have a meeting tomorrow afternoon to look at my options. Understandably, I cannot just change jobs as easily as I can leave HC, but if we give it some time and remain professional in the office until I leave, then I'm sure we'll both be happy in the end.
Like you said in your 1st Post above; ever since our friendship ended, you have started to change/evolve. Even though you might just consider this another one of my "hypocrite" or "two-faced" comments, I'm sincerely glad to hear that you are doing this. Even when we were parting ways, I wished you the best of luck and happiness, because I loved you. As it stands now, my feelings have changed, but my thoughts have not. I hope that you continue on your journey of self-discovery and continue to expand your horizons!
As the final pieces to our complete separation come into place, I just want you to know that I don't consider any of my experiences with you to be negative...even the recent ones. Although I don't agree with your methods, they made me reflect upon myself, and who I am. When our friendship ended, I realized that I was putting other people ahead of my wife and myself. I also learned that I was spending too much time around people who were consumed with negative energy and was consequently becoming less & less positive myself. Now, with my presence at HC coming to an end, you are once again making me admit to myself that I am putting something ahead of my wife and real life.
Even though I knew these things deep-down-inside, it took you to make me see how I have been ignoring much more important things around me; for the sake of sharing my beliefs, philosophies, opinions, humour, and creativity on the internet. As much as I love many different members of HC dearly, many are still just "virtual friends" and little more than strangers. They are not my wife, my parents, my neighbours, and my 15-week-old-baby/fetus. Obviously I have misplaced my priorities a little, so I want to thank you, Martin! You have, once again, forced me to re-examine my life and come out of it a better man, husband, son, neighbour, and soon-to-be father.
While some might consider our recent "situation" unhealthy or negative, I refuse to do so. I will not be victimized by one of life's random twists! Instead I choose to learn from these circumstances and grow from their lessons. I choose to be happy!
If I must leave HC and change jobs, as abruptly as I had previously ended our friendship, then so be it. I will do whatever needs to be done to make myself happy and to get my life in order. I just hope that these actions of mine also serve to improve your life and make you happier. I also hope that all of this gives you closure & satisfaction, and that you are able to absorb the venom that has built up between us.
There are no more reasons for you to make excuses and to point the finger at me for your unhappiness and negative circumstances. I'm giving you the opportunity to embrace all of the good and positive things in your life, by removing myself from it completely. If my ending our friendship has already began this process for you, then I just hope that my leaving HC & switching jobs will move you closer to the joy, peace, and happiness that you seek and deserve.
*If anyone wants to keep the MYT game going at some point in the future, please make sure to copy any pertinent information from my Posts before I delete them.
*Conan, please take over the Poster of the Month series, as you have already started doing.
*Angelito, don't forget about the HC Awards next year.
*Gorman, feel free to kill off my characters in LHW or whatever you'd like.
*Sir_Stiven, please let me know who won between Conan & I in the WANTED game, over Messenger.
*If anyone is curious to know what I think about them or about HC, in general, you have a week to look here, here, and here (for example) and then I will delete all of my Posts.
*And somebody please say high for me to all of the people who left for the Summer, when they finally return this Fall.
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*The end to no beginning...
*Take care, Leo
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Lord_Woock
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Daddy Cool with a $90 smile
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posted July 05, 2005 02:44 PM |
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Tell me when I'm going overboard with this, but I do indeed find both of you, at this very moment, rather pathetic. What kind of person either a) sets out to humiliate another or b) leaves just because he is no longer friends with somebody?
a)
I admit that I've had my fits of rage as well. There have been a few moments when everything seemed to be there just to piss me off. Several members here possibly remember being yelled at or insulted by me for no big reason. I believe that this has happened more than once, and I have apologized for every such occurence, as I again do now. But what could possibly be a good enough reason to repeatedly attempt to bring another member down? I most certainly hope that your negative energy will run out soon enough and upon retrospection, you'll find such events silly.
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Oh noes, an HC member seems to have turned against you! Run for your life!
Now seriously. Friendships and such come and go. This is as obvious as the sun rising and setting. What I find absolutely ridiculous, is the idea of leaving HC because of something this trivial. But not only do you want to leave, but also rid HC of any posts of yours. Not only do you run away from a problem instead of solving it, but also you deprive both present and future members of HC of quite a bit of stuff they could enjoy. You say you choose to be happy. If you find happiness in cowardice and destruction of what you have been creating for the past months, then so be it. Who am I to stop you from being happy? Still, your path to happiness will remain puzzling to me.
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Yolk and God bless.
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a_rebirthing...
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with rebirthing power
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posted July 05, 2005 03:17 PM |
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woock, i think that there is more to the story but thats gonna stay between them two.
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'Tis better to rely on the the wit of your brain rather than the speed of your hands and mouse -me
Being happy isn't just an emotion, it's a choice!-Leo_Lion
It's Gortex!!!
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Lord_Woock
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Daddy Cool with a $90 smile
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posted July 05, 2005 03:25 PM |
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That's what I assumed too. I should've added a disclaimer that said post was written with very limited knowledge on the matter at hand
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Yolk and God bless.
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a_rebirthing...
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posted July 05, 2005 03:31 PM |
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indeed. i dont think anyone but them two are in a position to make any sorta comments
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'Tis better to rely on the the wit of your brain rather than the speed of your hands and mouse -me
Being happy isn't just an emotion, it's a choice!-Leo_Lion
It's Gortex!!!
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jebus
Promising
Supreme Hero
TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 05, 2005 05:17 PM |
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(Im not goint to bother arguning the above post)
... Im glad you felt the need to cut and past the "break up letter" you had already sent me... adding a few "poor me" comments in there...
I actually stopped reading at the "are you jealous of me"
litteray garbage until I got to the bottom and saw some other members replies... then my curiosity got the best of me.
In my original post of this thread, I listed MANY DIFFERENT ISSUES that have been bothering me and never single handedly pointed out any one person. If you felt that I was singleling you out then maybe you recognized yourself in the words I used... not my problem.
Secondly if you had noticed I've been arguing SPAM and the CoC alot lately and unfortunetely for me, some of your posts have been for me the best examples of undisciplined or unwarned posts. Trust me when I say that I didn't want to mention YOU at all...
It's ironic however that where you thought things were civil therefore you were posting in some of my conversations (mine in the sense that I was participating), you didn't realize that (in most cases) I was staying away from you. Only recently did I decide to try to "discuss" some of your points logically or civilly
to try to better understand how you can suposedly claim your life philosophy but not live in an atmosphere that practices it.
The big difference between me and any other member is that I know you and that I have the luxury of having to sort through the BS. I can be one person on line and another at home but then don't preach your philosophy if you don't even live by or near it!
Lastly, don't be blind to others' perception of you.
My primary motivation in some of my so called "attacks" on you are due to the passiveness of others. I got fed up and, like always, end up being the one to say something.
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posted July 05, 2005 05:25 PM |
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*sighs in dissapointment*
As Leo and I have talked about this decision last night I feel that Leo's being the bigger man about it. Woock, I know as one of the ppl that you've, gone off on, that it is best to just let matters rest. I do know that I, for one, would not appreciate in any way someone's constant cheap pot shots at me or my friends. Leo, as much as I DISLIKE your decision, I respect you for it. You have shown me at some points in HC where you feel as though Jebus has taken his shots at you, and I can see why you'd feel leaving is your best option. Though you probably won't read this for quite some time, I do hope you'll stick around and stalk HC as a random guest. I hope you also choose to keep your posts around as many of them took much time, thought, and effort into them. You have shown that at times desperate times call for desperate measures. Hopefully life outside of HC will treat you better than it has here.
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jebus
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TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 05, 2005 05:26 PM |
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So, Jebus, after all that, please make sure you get over there to see your uncle as soon as he can have visitors. Oh yeah, and by the way...Thanks for listening, Mate!
Love, Peace, and Happiness!
Khayman,
sorry I wanted to post seperately to reply to you...
I am greatly appreciative of your words....
In regards to my uncle it's difficult since right now things are getting better but seing it as he's in intensive care, i wouldn't get a change to see him anyways! And I found out that even my presence would be to much of a change in his presence atmosphere and could affect his recovery... I had asked my aunt to let me know as soon as I can come visit, even if it's 5 minutes I'd go. I aggree that you can't wait until it's too late but im caught between lettin' him get the rest he needs and the possibility that things turn for the worst and I don't get the chance. Right now the only thing I can do is pray for him and hope that there's enough positive thoughts going his way.....
As far as everything else in my post, as I mentioned, my comments encompass alot of the crap I've been dealing with lately... at home, at work, in my personal life and here. Sometimes to stop the flow of negativity you need to rid yourself of it all first.
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even in my moment of pure total honesty, I have to deal with spam...
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jebus
Promising
Supreme Hero
TheJester akaJeebs akaJebfoo
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posted July 05, 2005 05:48 PM |
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Can a MOD lock this thread.... there's nothing else to talk about...
..My uncle passed away last night.
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pandora
Honorable
Legendary Hero
The Chosen One
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posted July 05, 2005 09:53 PM |
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I'm very sorry to hear about your uncle.
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