|
|
veco
Legendary Hero
who am I?
|
posted November 05, 2009 12:29 PM |
|
|
Let's rush
to love people, they depart so quickly.
This is a very famous quote here in Poland and I believe this is how it should be translated.
Yesterday I've been on the funeral of my 28yo cousin, he has been suffering from schizophrenia for the past several years and last week he escaped the psyhiatric hospital and committed suicide.
As I heared of it for the first time last Wednesday I didn't yet comprehend how great the tragedy is, partly because I haven't seen him in a very long time. Occasionally I have heared what is going on with him and even wanted to visit him at least once but the stories about the way he behaved and the fact that we've not seen each other years before his condition worsened made me hesistant about it. What should we talk about? What if he won't be in the mood for guests? These kinds of question ran through my mind and soon got trampled by other issues.
I would never have thought that the word "schizophrenia" would make such a significant impact on how I percieve a person. I was afraid to meet him, yet in every memory I had of him he was a very kind and gentle person for which I admired him when I was a kid. However I reminded myself of those memories only yesterday, which now I greatly regret.
I've heared a lot of stories about him yesterday, it gave me a drastically different point of view on him. Always open for others, willing to help but he didn't have a protective shield from the unpleasant/cruel things in life. Studying philosophy didn't help him either. Now his father, although he's trying to hide it, puts the blame on himself for not being there for him, not realising when he needed support. If I feel terrible then I can't imagine what he is feeling but luckily there are upcoming a couple of good occassions for family meetings in the next few weeks + I live just by the street so I hope we can help them out somehow.
In the end, I'll repeat the quote once more.
Let's rush to love people, they depart so quickly. - Jan Twardowski
I guess there is no other way to truly understand this sentence other than to do it the hard way.
I was trying not to go into too much detail because I feel that I shouldn't, my intention was to let you know a piece of my mind and bring a story behind the phrase.
____________
none of my business.
|
|
JollyJoker
Honorable
Undefeatable Hero
|
posted November 05, 2009 12:53 PM |
|
|
As someone who's widowed once already I can only agree. Life may be shorter than you think, so you better hurry up with expressing your feelings.
My condolences.
|
|
veco
Legendary Hero
who am I?
|
posted November 05, 2009 01:05 PM |
|
|
Sorry to hear that.
This is a major experience for me and I won't let it go to waste, there are positive sides to everything.
____________
none of my business.
|
|
JollyJoker
Honorable
Undefeatable Hero
|
posted November 05, 2009 01:23 PM |
|
|
Exactly.
Well, I've married again, and I'd say that I'm very happy with that, so thanks for the sorry, but it's no open wound anymore.
|
|
Doomforge
Admirable
Undefeatable Hero
Retired Hero
|
posted November 05, 2009 04:56 PM |
|
|
JJ, how did it happen? if it's ok to ask.
____________
We reached to the stars and everything is now ours
|
|
JollyJoker
Honorable
Undefeatable Hero
|
posted November 05, 2009 09:47 PM |
|
|
Cancer. She was 37 when it was diagnosed. 5 years later she was dead. Daughter was 14 at the time. All pretty sad.
Has nothing to do with my stance on religion, though.
I wasn't trying to find blame somewhere, even though some very mundane things with medical treatment and so on went wrong.
|
|
|