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2XtremeToTake
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posted July 14, 2007 10:48 PM |
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Change...why?
Since all the mods are mysteriously inactive, I'm reposting this here..posted it in the wrong forum by accident 
Why do things have to change? I know change is natural, but I just wish it wouldn't happen...
I used to live in Georgia (the state, not the country). Things were great there....moved away from there when I was 9 due to family issues.
I'm 17 now. I got a call from a former friend a couple hours ago from when I was 9. He was 9 as well, and is now also 17. Thats 8 years ago we haven't seen or talked, I don't know how he tracked me down but he did. He called to let me know that our old cat whom we left in their possession cause we couldn't take it had finally passed away. He told me that she led a good life, they took care of her in those 8 years, and she actually had two sets of kittens in her lifetime. I found that cat on my very first morning of first grade as I walked out to the bus stop, as a kitten meowing for food at my front door.
While on the phone, we discussed how things had become. My old elementary school was demolished and split into two seperate schools. The "suburban" neighborhood we lived in became predominately black dominated, and is now a very bad neighborhood to live in. My old house became a crystal meth lab. No joke.
The daycare I grew up in, where I still have so many fond memories, was situated in the middle of this neighborhood. It was shut down because of no business. I found out many of my friends from elementary schools grew up to not-so-favorable outcomes. My 2nd grade crush is now the school snow, and one of my other friends is in Juvenile.
This got me to thinking how much things can change...its ridiculous...I only have bright and positive memories of that place...to imagine what he described it as now...I can't envision it. It was an ideal suburban neighborhood, nothing bad, a whole bunch of kids to hang around with and get in trouble with for digging in dirt or something, or bringing home a pet frog...now kids there are getting in trouble for smoking weed..at NINE YEARS OLD!
Another example of change is my mothers side of the family. It was a very large italian family, and our grandmother pretty much kept it together. My mother had 4 sisters, and all of them lived within 1 block of each other...except us of course, cause my mom was different . But the visits up there were always remarkable, large family gatherings, fun times...
My grandmother, mother, and two aunts died over time, and the family is now split apart and very loose. The closest time we come together is during christmas when we send cards to each other, the ones that remain. That one block is now another ghetto area in philadelphia, dominated by gang violence and other bad stuff.
I have a feeling, I'm going to grow up to be an old man, wasting away at the thought of the past and how it used to be. I look at my high school now, and my friends now, and imagine it all in 10 years..where will it all be? It saddens me to think about the future, but even more to think about the past.
I'm not gonna lie and act like I'm all perfect and innocent as I was 8 years ago. I drink, i'm in high school, I get in trouble, fights, etc...But jesus christ...too much change is bad. Its just all so confusing right now :-/
Sometimes I wish things would never change...Just lock a certain point in time, and live there forever...
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I almost had a psychic girlfriend but she left me before we met.
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Doomforge
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Undefeatable Hero
Retired Hero
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posted July 14, 2007 11:01 PM |
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Loss of innocence? 
I miss the good old days. When I was 8 and played civilization 1 with my mates for hours. When I was 12 and spent whole days playing football, from morning to evening.. when I was 16, and was in serious love with my first girlfriend.. Now I am nearly 20, and ppl require me to transform from a happy teenager into a serious man within literally months. How is that possible? Deep inside, I still feel teenage, after all.
anyways, 2extreme2take, the thing you're describing is natural when you're growing up, I guess. People change.. quickly. Hey, don't worry, at any point of your life you can meet interesting ppl and have a perfect time.. perfect enough to wish for a time stop scroll. I think I had such time already.. but who knows what future may bring. 
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Setitetart
Known Hero
Reality check....
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posted July 16, 2007 02:20 AM |
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Where to even begin?
**sighs**
I have been there, done that, got the postcard and burned that bra...LOL
I remember going through what you describe....several times over in fact.
Change happens and sometimes the changes aren't good...but sometimes they are. Kind of depends...
Sometimes you know the change will happen such as a life transition...going from a child to a teenager for instance...
And you go through a few more before you hit adulthood, and I have lost count how many changes I went through after I was officially an adult. LOL
Perhaps marriage, or a birth, or a death....all changes.
I know it is confusing and sometimes hard to cope with, but I must encourage you to be adaptable and to try to do the right things even when you are the only one doing the right thing.
Life is an enigma and you never know what will happen next.
I don't much like changes, I am older now and I expect things to be a certain way...but when a change comes i feel able to deal with it in a mature fashion because of my ability to adapt and attempt make the situation better.
Take inventory of the good things that are important to you...those people and those things...hold them close and protect them.
For instance I would much rather have 2 great friends than 50 so-called friends, and I would believe you are old enough to make the distinction of who is really a friend to you versus who is just using you or pushing you to do things you know you shouldn't be doing.
And those things around you that are noxious and hold you back...rid yourself of them, because those things will trip you up and put you into situations you dont need to be in.
And in those moments you are unsure, maybe the changes in your life are too great for you to handle on your own, I would say find someone you trust and allow them to help and support you.
Good luck to you.
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"Do you think we should drive a stake through his heart, just in case?"
~ Peter Lorre to Vincent Price at Bela Lugosi's funeral
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