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Aculias
Aculias


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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted August 30, 2004 01:30 AM

Finally

After all these years I finally completed what I been looking for in so many years.

As most know I came on the net because of a depression after my X GF severly broke my heart in the cruelest way possible.

Now I hear the great news today on my apartment I will be getting on Wednesday that I have so many plans.
My new GF moving in with me & I am going to start over at school & work so my schedule will be busy.

I know you hear my retirements before but I was still incomplete.
I been on the net for way too long, I am throwing my life away on this net.

My GF hopefully wont come on here too much since she will be on most of the time probally while i am busy in RL.

I tell her so many times not to come in here & hopefully after 2-3 days ago being stripped that she will listen to me.

maybe almost 100% the people in here can care less about the others in reality, because this is fantasy, this whole net & it takes you away from whats real.

I see young kids in here throwing thier lives away when they should be going out & doing it like i did.

I guess by Wednesday this is it for me.

Miss everyone on here, even the ones that despised me.
I kept my promise & it will be kept Sox.
I am out of here just like you.

This is not your life young friends like Woock & the few other young kids that are not doing nothing but chilling on the com.

You WILL regret not going out when you get to be my age.
Listen to someone thats been everywhere.

I guess Tuesday will be my last day here * this time, this is for reals.
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bjorn190
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posted August 30, 2004 01:50 AM bonus applied.

So happy to hear that Acu, and I truly hope that your love is the rebirth you are feeling. A more cynical view is that while love is what makes life worth living, its not a solution to the great problems of life. Who are we? What do we do here? Are we alone or do others love us too? What is the soul? And what is love?

When someone loves you and believes in you, it is amazing, because to know that, makes you able to love and believe in yourself. And thats the beginning of believing in everyone else, and the doorway to compassion. But it doesn't end there.

Today, casual love is far from permanent, and to rely heavily on it is to gamble for destruction. Although some of us, like me and Acu, don't compromise with the infinite magnitude of our love, it means jumping without a parachute, and more often than not, you fall through the coulds of heaven and break against the merciless surface of the earth.

I think the Internet is real, and sometimes what we do here is more real than who we are in everyday society, where we are identified by our job, and what trademarks we consume, rather than who we truly are in our hearts and souls. The Internet releases our spirit and lets us be free at last, together as brothers and sisters.

We have yet to see the greatest developments that the Internet inevitably leads to, but I can promise you, that I sincerely believe in the good of mankind, and the ability of the Internet to gradually help us build the trust neccessary to feel true compassion for our brothers and sisters in this cold hard material world we live in, where too often power and ability excludes the weak and poor from a good life.

In time, that suffering will fade,
Like tears in the rain

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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted August 30, 2004 02:29 AM

I been waiting for this for too long.

I been on this com for too long.
I agree the internet were all humans were not robots but we dont know who everyone truly is tho.

Yea your right, what i am doing is a gamble as any other relationship even if you known her or him all your life or you met her 2048593045 miles away.
Always a gamble.

I am so excited it is unbelievable.

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pandora
pandora


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posted August 30, 2004 04:38 AM
Edited By: pandora on 29 Aug 2004

Well Acu, what can I say?

I am truly happy that you are happy, and I really hope that your happiness lasts a lifetime

However, after the first 50 'I'm leaving' speeches, I vowed never to believe another one! So there, lol!

I really do hope that the future you're dreaming of is just around the corner, best of luck!

edit:
I gave Bjorn a QP for his post, that was lovely Bjorn! PS>Hope my advice over IM worked
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LichKing
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posted August 30, 2004 04:54 AM
Edited By: LichKing on 29 Aug 2004

Damn you, Bjorn

I read Pecu's post and had a whole slew of patented LichKing smartass comments in mind for a fun reply.  And then I read your reply.

Gotta say this.....and I mean it.......you're one of the rare 'good guys'.

I'm more of a realist/fatalist, but I would still sincerely love to see your dream of a unified kinship among all mankind come to fruition.  Call me a soft bastard or whatever else you like, but the more I 'hear' from you the more I believe that you really do have a heart of gold.  Pity I can't 'know' you IRL...

Acu, I know you were serious when you posted this.  I hope the love for that 'special someone' you were feeling at the time you wrote this is reciprocated by her (it is a her, isn't it [j/k old bud]) and your resolve is as strong a year from now as it is today.

In all honesty, my thoughts are pretty much like Pan's, though.  Still, if this is really, truly, honestly, for-real-this-time, I-mean-it, and I-swear the END, I'd like to let ya know that it's been a pleasure 'knowing' ya

If not........well, hell.......I'll just delete this post and swear that them damned peasants and elves hacked my user/pass and spoofed my IP and wrote this in an attempt to make it look like Lich might just have a heart

Best wishes to ya, bud

Hope life's everything ya want of it!

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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted August 30, 2004 05:14 AM

Thang was Lich that when i first came on here I was ripped from alot within myself.
XGF & all.
Now I found someone, getting my life together in my own place & ready to really go out there & do it.

Yea i will come visit once in awhile but it may be as rare as when Motor does these days.

I wish I could meet ya too, were planing trips to meet some peeps.

Yes I am Kittens Biatch

Basically in short what I lost to cause me to go on the net I found just now.
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posted August 30, 2004 05:55 AM

Acu, I think it's amazing that you found someone that you love though the internet.  Have some fun in life.
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KittenAngel
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posted September 03, 2004 12:01 AM

awww baby reading this really brought tears to my eyes. soon baby,(monday) we will hopefully be able to move on and forget about our problems in past relationships and continue to grow in  ours and make each other happy. I love you baby, gotta go pack so I can get my butt out there monday lol Love ya.

Also......... Thanks everyone for the kind words!

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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted September 07, 2004 08:36 AM

I guess this is it, tomorrow I move in & everythang will fall into place.
Thanks Valiery even tho there were bad circunstances recently,I been on here so long & helped so many people as much as pissed many off.
It was a blast I will miss my old friends on here.

Hopefully someday you toung kids will see what I been trying to tell all yalls & hopefully you will give the com a rest & venture out so you wont regret seeing whats out there.
It's really awesome if you really give the com a break & just do it before it's too late.

So many I wanted to thank but most are retired.
WHat will the HC be when we dont even have Aculias Kicking around anymore hehe.

I would never lie to you guys & I hope my last thread opened a few truthful ideas on why thangs are the way they are.
People like me changed, Sox said it right in my face & I had to think about that one after we read through an old post 3 yrs back.

After reading it I knew he was right, I am not the same person I was anymore I think because I grew up.
I just feel I need to do more with my life & back then I wanted to make everyone happy & share my toughts & other stuff.
I tried to interest many of yalls in so much even tho I failed.
I failed on the whole HC to do what I wanted to do because I couldnt interest yalls in anythang I said even in the past.
I wanted to teach some of the kids in hear but i am no Bort or PH,Cathrine & Old Timer.
I got alot of wisdom but it is true I am not as popular as they are.
I guess I couldnt cut it in here & I just didnt realise it.
In the past I helped many out & never once got or asked for anythang in return, not one person & thats how it always was on here.
They always wanted advise or help from me but then you realise, thier not your real friends because they dont care about what you go through or who you are etc.

I really cared about everyone on this board & I wanted to make a difference but I also failed in that too.
I made some mistakes I am talking about when i was new on here.
Now I just feel diferent on here like I am talking to strangers who just dont understand.
All my old friends on here dont even talk to me anymore when i say hi so I guess no matter what I do, I just fail I guess.
Yea I loved everyone on here I seen them come & go & change thier attitudes because of RL & were just getting older not to include so is heroes.
Theres only a handful of friends I care about like Bjorn if he needed anythang I would probally give it to him because hes been cool ever since I was new here & I always help my friends.
I had friends from yrs that basically not in words say F you to me & like WTF screw you then.

Like 2 days ago I try to say hi to this person & basically said F you dont talk to me & I am like?????
What did I ever do to you but helpp you when you needed it & when you needed to talk I was there & helped when thangs were in trouble but i guess thats what I get for failing in here.

WHen i first came in here I was torn limb from limb in the inside by RL & I wanted to help people so they wont go through what I have.
I IM yalls so I could cheer you up but I guess maybe I shouldnt of.
I tried to make everyone happy but I guess I couldnt do that.

I seen alot on HC tho & I miss it, some may whine & cry about it but i tought it was really fun hehe.

I dont know what else to say but I miss you guys & I will visit but occasionally probally.

Like I want to keep talking but it would be empty lol.
I used to have so much fun on here it was like my RL entertainment for 2 yrs lol.
I loved everyone & I am glad to be a part & respected by most.

Looks like your in charge of the tossing now Stiven I stepped down almost a yr ago hehe.
You know you cant toss me ever tho hehe.

Thanks guys & gl & rememeber about what I said about going out & try to give the com a rest at least sometimes.


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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted October 28, 2004 07:51 AM

Well looks like Thangs just dont work out the way you think it would.
I read this & think of every lie she told me but it seemed so believable it was aweful how a human being can say stuff like this & turn around & do other stuff.

It was like all total fake it was like rediculas.
For almost a yr I made a fool of myself just to protect her because i believed her.
I didnt think even she could be that terrible.
I was wrong.

Not just in here & zone or com but my own life & family I was willing to make the change just for her & give my all.

I guess I failed to change her.

I must apologise to everyone I really talked down to because of how protective I was with Kitten.
She would lie about every situation & she knew how i felt about her & I would believe her.
Most on here knows I can talk them down & move them out & I did & I feel terrible about it & she knew I could do that.

Look how many mods quit & how many frictions came up only because I wanted to be at least the only one on her side.

ALso an apology to Valiery because of my actions being blinded of loving her too much to even get booted to make my point with her.

Red Sox & Lich King.
I know I was a factor of decisions & I admit I was an you know what i was because I wouldnt stand for any bad talk on her at all.

I am trying to be as honest as I can be.

I wanted I did get an apartment I wanted to start a new life I always wanted this I would of done anythang for this.
I guess was my fault to because I feel like i am getting old & alone & I tought this was my last chance to find happiness & I didnt want to lose it & I would do whatever it took.
Theres only so much I can take.
I can take alot more then most I know I have took alot but I am only human & she finally realised I am human.

I always considered myself good with people, they can always come & talk to me 1-1 & I always gave honest great advice i care about everyone & thang well except the NY & LA teams .

I think back of what i done before Sept & man I cant believe I even did that.

I'm not mad anymore I am not uptight all the time like I was anymore I am mellow & feel lighter then air.

Everyone told me but I didnt listen because she seemed so real & sincere.
Not only is she a fake on here & she lies to everyone on here 95% of the time & yes even to her close friends on here as well, but to her own family & friends in her own life.

I learned alot from this incident but it's just another episode in my life thats all.

I also wanted to say be careful & no matter whats said & done once a cheater always a cheater & follow your gut feeling that I didnt do & watch for clues & again, Sorry.
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posted October 28, 2004 08:25 AM
Edited By: RedSoxFan3 on 28 Oct 2004

Redsox win! They finally did it!

Oh wait I thought this thread being named finally must be about the Sox. Sorry Acu.

Welcome back!
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gorman
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Been around since before 2003
posted October 28, 2004 09:00 AM

Quote:
Redsox win! They finally did it!

Oh wait I thought this thread being named finally must be about the Sox. Sorry Acu.

Welcome back!


You foo! He's not coming back again, he's leaving again! Get it right! Oh, and Acu, if I ever do see you around in HC again I'll be sure to never let you live it down. I'll IM you for the rest of your internet life saying "remember how you said it was the LAST time?" j/k Anyways, I hope your life will be looking much better in the near future. I'm in the process of getting myself out of a pit. lol Anyways, take care and have a BIG family in RL. That was there'll be lots of little Acu's coming to HC so I can give them -qp's if I ever get to mod status
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REDACTED
posted February 06, 2005 06:18 AM

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I see young kids in here throwing thier lives away when they should be going out & doing it like i did.


Consider me evil, but I can't help but find this amusing. You made a mistake with your life, namely believing that an internet romance was real, and yet you see yourself in the position to instruct those "kids" on how they should spend their free time.

For quite a long time, you've been under the impression that every single person on HC has no real life, and spends every second of their lives here. This is not, I sure hope so at least, true. People come here, make a post or two every day and leave, spending the rest of their lives like normal people. Just like another person may go to a book club, or join a debating team in school, they are spending a small portion of their free time on a semi-intellectual activity. In fact, you could read every single thread made on HC daily, and post a couple yourself, while only spending 30 minutes or so a day. This is not called "throwing their lives away". This is normal behaviour.

Yes, I agree, you should be happy about your newly found love. But why do you assume that this is such a unique case? Why is it that you assume that no other person here has relationships, family, hobbies and friends they spend time on?
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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted February 06, 2005 06:45 AM

Dude your missing the total 100% of what I am trying to say.

I know many have lives, I know i do.
sounds to me that you are the hater & the judgemental person on here talking about internet love.
Yea i believe in alot of ways love can happen, but you seem to think people on net are fake.

Now what I mean about young people on net is that i SEE young really young people on here on thier spare time in the net constantly,SOme here almost all day for yrs.
They should go out more & enjoy life, not on net.

HOW DARE YOU accuse me of such words.

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Lich
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posted February 06, 2005 11:25 AM

Yeah, HOW DARE YOU ACCUSE HIM so lightly, do it in a more harsh way

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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted February 06, 2005 11:44 AM

Your never going to end this grudge will ya lol.
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posted February 06, 2005 05:58 PM

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HOW DARE YOU accuse me of such words.


Hm. Name these people please, because I sure as hell don't see them. You must realise, the net is fake. It's not a substitute for the real world, and nobody here thinks that it is.
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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted February 06, 2005 06:23 PM

Are you a fake then?
Plus another one my points, get out there in the world then sitting on com.

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Aculias
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Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
posted February 06, 2005 06:30 PM

Not many would agree with ya IYY.
Alot good people on here & many met each other & would agree with me.
I dont know why you are talking to me like this or what I did with you but I defanately disagree with ya on that one.

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Lich
Lich


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posted February 06, 2005 06:59 PM

Yes, as usual you're saintly and everyone around ya are evil... Maybe it's time to see why you cause that and look that maybe you aren't so "saint" afterall.

To IYY: I can guarantee that there are honest people, I'm honest and caring myself to certain people in net, and I'm not faking in general too, however most than half people are fake, that is true... Just look at KA, sweet from appearence and just look how she acted here...

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