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Doomforge
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Retired Hero
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posted July 26, 2011 11:45 PM |
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Duke... have you decided on taking the chemo? Sorry for curiosity.
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Duke_Falcon
Disgraceful
Supreme Hero
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posted July 28, 2011 08:24 PM |
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Well, they said it is too late for chemo but later they offer it.
I tried it but I felt so bad and weak that I forfeit it... I'll do it on my own I guess...
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Duke_Falcon
Disgraceful
Supreme Hero
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posted August 09, 2011 07:04 PM |
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Some things in flux...
The world have changed a real lot I say this... Even the stars on the nightsky looks really different!
I became single again.
It pains a lot but I could understand and accept this as I somehow foreseen this change. She, my once-life, told me she is not strong enough to do this untill the end and returned back into Israel. Hope she will happy and will live a full and good life.
And I have realised that I became weaker than ever. I simply can not win now as I am simply to weak for this. Sad thing but utterly true. Thinking so much lately to surrender and tarnish, fade out this universe until I will be covered by the starless night... But something deep inside me shout and cry to fight further! Even if I won't win this fight...
I feel strange. Sometimes I feel myself really good compared with my current condition but sometimes I feel unimaginable pain... And now I have little left to fighting for? Really do not know yet...
Maybe time will show what to do...
But I am returned!
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Smithey
Promising
Supreme Hero
Yes im red, choke on it !!!
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posted August 09, 2011 07:26 PM |
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What a ???
Look, duke, girl breaking up with you is hard, without a doubt and I can offer to break her a fingernail or two since she's a neighbor and all that but seriously man 
I dont wanna hear that talk from you, get your act together and fast, you were talking babies just a few months ago and now you're giving up on a fight ? You never give up on a fight, life is more than worth fighting for, you keep fighting and you win against everything thats thrown your way, thats the only way and that is what you must do...
Get back on your feet, stay strong, and FIGHT goddamnit !!!!! First you win the disease then we'll get you your girl back or find you a cooler one Fight goddamnit, You are Duke Falcon man, don't forget that 
Those thoughts have no place in your mind right now, Fighting is the only thing that has !!!!!!!
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Tsar-Ivor
Promising
Legendary Hero
Scourge of God
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posted August 09, 2011 07:40 PM |
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I just realised I don't even know his name ...
Duke be not afraid of death, all you have to do is meet death with satisfaction, lying down and dying isn't the answer, you fight and you may die, you give up and your done for sure, fight not just for yourself but for those who will take heart from your victory, it will give people hope. Hope that tomorrow will wake up with a new sun, that ushers in a new age of miracles and the sense that anything can be done.
You learn the lesson of why a man is required to live, sooner then most, you are and will be needed.
All I ask for is to serve god in all my dealings, and meet my demise honourably. If you have been honest in your time at HC, then I'm certain that cancer won't put you in your grave, as I said, thats a promise. 
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"No laughs were had. There is only shame and sadness." Jenny
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meroe
Supreme Hero
Basically Smurfette
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posted August 09, 2011 08:04 PM |
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I'm sorry to hear that Dukey. Some people just cannot cope with illness or watching their loved one's unwell, they just are not strong enough. I'm sorry she can't be with you. But you will have many people who will have such strength and belief in you, they will strengthen you too. You probably know them already, most of them will be your family.
The most important thing right now anyway is to concentrate on yourself and stop talking like this. You are stronger than this I know you are.
Don't make me come out to Hungary to kick your butt!!
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Meroe is definetely out, sweet
as she sounds sometimes, she'd
definetely castrate you with a
rusted razror and forcefeed
your genitals to you in a
blink of an eye - Kipshasz
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Duke_Falcon
Disgraceful
Supreme Hero
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posted August 09, 2011 08:27 PM |
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Don't make me come out to Hungary to kick your butt!!
I try to do my best but I'm just too weak now phisichally... My body is weakened more than I expected. I made a big mistake with the try of the chemo and this mistake made unavailable the victory for me...
The best I can get is a draw otherwise I fail and in this case failure is death...
And since there are a lot of people who want me to see dead I think I try everything to do else 'cause I hate them to.
I keep up the fight despite my lethal weakness. I think the only thing that left for me is the fighting itself.
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Tsar-Ivor
Promising
Legendary Hero
Scourge of God
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posted August 09, 2011 08:39 PM |
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Who are you duke? What are your hopes and dreams? What is your duty in life?
These are the things that concern me and I find myself curious  . You need purpose, you need to find yourself my friend and that is worth any pain and any suffering imho.
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"No laughs were had. There is only shame and sadness." Jenny
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selcy
Famous Hero
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posted August 09, 2011 08:50 PM |
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Oh Duke I am so sorry  .
I have been there and seen it happen. Have you got people around you?
I can understand why your girlfriend chose that path cos to watch someone you love hurting and not being able to do anything rips you apart.
I nursed my husband till he could fight no longer and I said the hardest words in my life, I told him that it was Ok for him to stop fighting. Two days later he died in his sleep in hospital.
You didn't know the Chemo was going to affect you so bad and anything is worth a go cos you never know.
Keep fighting Duke.
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alcibiades
Honorable
Undefeatable Hero
of Gold Dragons
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posted August 09, 2011 08:58 PM |
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Hi Duke, sorry to hear about this development, I could have wished better for you. I have stayed out of this thread because I think it's such a painful subject, but I'm really impressed that you still find the strength to come back here and share with us, even in the bad times.
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What will happen now?
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Elvin
Admirable
Omnipresent Hero
Endless Revival
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posted August 09, 2011 09:08 PM |
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I share Alci's sentiments. Just glad to see you return duke.
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Corribus
Hero of Order
The Abyss Staring Back at You
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posted August 09, 2011 09:23 PM |
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I have like a genetic deficiency when it comes to consolation, but even so, I've got to say that your story tugs at the heart strings. Hoping for the best for you, man. Don't lose heart.
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I'm sick of following my dreams. I'm just going to ask them where they're goin', and hook up with them later. -Mitch Hedberg
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Tsar-Ivor
Promising
Legendary Hero
Scourge of God
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posted August 09, 2011 09:44 PM |
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Appologies for my confusing blocks of text , I, like everyone else, am simply striving to aid and assist a fellow-man in a gripping situation.
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"No laughs were had. There is only shame and sadness." Jenny
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Shyranis
Promising
Supreme Hero
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posted August 09, 2011 09:58 PM |
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Edited by Shyranis at 00:46, 10 Aug 2011.
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I don't know what to say that I already haven't.
To be honest I'm pretty terrible at comforting people, in fact in person I generally make people feel worse.
All I can really do is add that I hope you keep up the fight. It's not the end of the world. You can overcome it. There is always a chance. Don't let your doubts get the better of you, you're stronger than you believe.
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Tsar-Ivor
Promising
Legendary Hero
Scourge of God
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posted August 09, 2011 10:04 PM |
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f the chemo is making you weaker psychically, that's something that wasn't expected,
I like you Shyranis but I must ask you to remove this, because of this . I know you mean well.
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You do realise that Chemo itself damages cells (to kill the cancerous cells aswell) also there is a possibility (don't want to give uncomfirmed statistics) that the chemo will actually reduce your life expectency (not that the doctors would tell you, ask 'em to be sure though, for me ), not to mention it will drastically weaken you.
PAGE 5 (second post I think)
I bolded the important bit.
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"No laughs were had. There is only shame and sadness." Jenny
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Jabanoss
Promising
Legendary Hero
Property of Nightterror™
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posted August 09, 2011 10:48 PM |
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Edited by Jabanoss at 22:49, 09 Aug 2011.
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Don't ever give up Duke. And whatever you do, don't think about bad moments in your life, anxiety, regrets and god knows what else. Try to think about all the joys you we've have experienced so far, and about the people who love you.
Whatever happens, we love you man, and don't you ever forget that!
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"You turn me on Jaba"
- Meroe
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OmegaDestroyer
Hero of Order
Fox or Chicken?
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posted August 09, 2011 10:49 PM |
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I keep up the fight despite my lethal weakness. I think the only thing that left for me is the fighting itself.
Good. Never stop fighting until the bitter end and when death comes for you, spit in its face and laugh at it.
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The giant has awakened
You drink my blood and drown
Wrath and raving I will not stop
You'll never take me down
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Tsar-Ivor
Promising
Legendary Hero
Scourge of God
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posted August 09, 2011 10:57 PM |
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If you can't laguh, what can you do  .
Edit: Thanks Selcy, I have a Step brother called Gábor, that makes it 8 brothers n' 2 sisters  , both his mum and dad died, so we took care of him (well I didnt' this is about 15-20 years before I was born), he's same age as the eldest Zoli. (He was in the same class as him in school) He's really regarded as a close family friend rather then step-brother, but I consider him a brother regardless of blood.
Hmmm found the thread, it's dead though, thanks to ohforf...pitty
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"No laughs were had. There is only shame and sadness." Jenny
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selcy
Famous Hero
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posted August 10, 2011 01:15 AM |
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Quote:
I just realised I don't even know his name ...
Gabor Lengyel Frater
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B-E-T-A
Promising
Legendary Hero
Guess Who is Back?
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posted August 10, 2011 04:35 AM |
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Come on Duke! You can do this! Just roar and scare that snowing cancer away! Come on! YOU CAN DO IT! FIGHT ON FOR LIFE AND GLORY!
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Yeah, that's about all that sprung to mind...Just know that we're here cheering for you!
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There is no good or evil, only madness. The question is "Just how mad are you?"
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