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u cannot avoid meeting idiots at a school. its not weird that people are being bullys. atleast, here in norway, u must go go to school, and school does not suit misfits, there fore u get bullys, who are only after troublem and makes life harder on those who one day, actually will become something
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AMtwis
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Wannabe-Pixelguy
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posted March 13, 2004 11:58 PM |
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Right. When I graduate, I hope that I will be there both physically and mentally. I want to graduate with happines and joy, not anger on those who treated me like nothing at school
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Aculias
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Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted March 14, 2004 06:02 AM |
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Thats just a partial example, you can imagine all the stuff that can happen to a single person which can feel like your trapped by a situation, or another person etc.
Not nessarily fighters but it can be numurous types of people.
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Tucker is not a duck
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posted March 21, 2004 12:37 PM |
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Suicides... seems like something people as sadistic as me would speak about...
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Consis
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Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted March 24, 2004 07:20 PM |
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Concern For Certain Members
I am strongly compelled to post in light of being told certain recent accounts of certain un-named members.
I must tell you, and you know who you are, that suicide is not the answer.
The very instant you decide to pull that trigger then you will be lost from this community and the rest of the world. There is no replacement for you in the hearts of those who love you when you die. Dying is a natural thing, if you let nature take its course, while taking your own life is not.
Your death would absolutely gouge an empty hole out of the heart of your loved ones. Do you think nobody loves you? If that is so then let me tell both of you right now.
I LOVE YOU! I love all the things that make both of you who you are. I cannot say those things because I don't want to reveal your identities without your permission. I have strongly urged one of you to post in this thread so that the many kind souls of HeroesCommunity can offer their kind words of advice.
If there is one thing I have learned by living in this world it is that loving advice can only come if you tell others of your pain and anguish.
Don't let the world become a burden! You are special to us! Your contributions to this community alone are enough to warrant your rightful existence!
I will tell you right now that I know! I know what it takes to tell someone about your pain! I know what it's like to think the things you are thinking!
Read my posts in this thread! Do not take your own life! Do not take from us your unique contribution to this world!
If more and more people succumb to the stress of everyday life then we end with a world less beautiful! You are the letter, the poem, the hug, the kiss, the smile that only you can give! No one else can give it of you! Let us embrace you as a friend. If you don't open your heart and your eyes then we can never help you.
Please, don't let the darkness take you. Come with us to a tavern of friends that sit back and tell stories of great adversity. Join us in the laughter, the tears, and the friendship of good company.
Without you we will be a less beautiful world. Tears of this nature are not the good kind.
If no one else wants to be your friend then I will gladly try to be. Perhaps we can play some more games together and work on ridding you of the empty loneliness that can sometimes overtake our fragile hearts.
Sincerely, Jake "Consis" Batchelor
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regnus_khan
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posted March 24, 2004 07:46 PM |
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Maybe it is not too late to say some words...
The world isn't full of an endless harmony and peace. No. The peace is disturbed by wars and harmony is disturbed with deaths. Many people die because they do not understand the main purpose of life. They want to die from their own hand, because they cannot stand what's too hard, too bad or too unfair.
1/4 of all deaths are suicides. As I mentioned above people suicide just because of these unfortunate misunderstandings they suffer.
Many people suicide just because they are poor, so not have any shelter, money and food.
Many people (like cops) die just because there something wrong.
More and more suicides - is this the end of the world? No. It is the end of the world for those who cannot understand the purpose of life. I do not mention those who are killed, die in battles or something bad happens.
I hope you all know these short phrases that have particular meanings and are commonly understood with your mind and heart:
"You can live only one time, as long as the God wishes, so use the life well"
"Time is life, when the string of lifetime is broken, you'll never be here again"
"Life - is a deadly disease that comes when we born"
These three phrases have deep meanings. I hope this could help all these people who wonder whether to suicide or not. Maybe it could stop ya. Suicide is not the easiest way to end the stress and difficulties. This will just start more of them.
In lithuania, there are many people that die just because they want to do this. About half of them are cops. They do it just because they suffer the things that they think are impossible to fight against.
This applies to many countries and places all over the whole wide world.
Apparently, nobody understand the biggest truth of life. If you notice, that many people that are religious, are not so often aligned with deaths and suicides. No, they believe what was once said about their gods (personally, I think that there's only one God, only every religion uses another name and habits).
I once again repeat suicides is not the easiest way to end your problems.
Mostly, nowadays people kill or suicide just because of the unfortunate minuses and stresses they suffer. They are a bit weak to understand that there will always be a chance to fight against this.
If you noticed (mostly adults), that young people (teenagers) suicide or kill when they watch too many movies, play too many rough and bad games, that cause their minds to change in an evil way, that will inevitably lead to death or suicide.
I know your bored and you do not like my stuff, but... I need to say this:
People who drink too much alcohol, smokes or uses drugs are always led to a painful and early death. If you notice, more and more people die because they uses to many of these things. We can call it a suicide either.
So I, for the last time, say that SUICIDES WON'T EASE THE PAIN, WON"T END THE PROBLEMS, IT WILL JUST GROW BIGGER.
You may ignore this now, but once you've suffered the same situation, mark my words and use them well.
Yours faithfully,
William J. "regnus_khan"
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Promising
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posted March 24, 2004 09:42 PM |
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I am strongly compelled to post in light of being told certain recent accounts of certain un-named members.
I must tell you, and you know who you are, that suicide is not the answer.
The very instant you decide to pull that trigger then you will be lost from this community and the rest of the world. There is no replacement for you in the hearts of those who love you when you die. Dying is a natural thing, if you let nature take its course, while taking your own life is not.
Your death would absolutely gouge an empty hole out of the heart of your loved ones. Do you think nobody loves you? If that is so then let me tell both of you right now.
I LOVE YOU! I love all the things that make both of you who you are. I cannot say those things because I don't want to reveal your identities without your permission. I have strongly urged one of you to post in this thread so that the many kind souls of HeroesCommunity can offer their kind words of advice.
If there is one thing I have learned by living in this world it is that loving advice can only come if you tell others of your pain and anguish.
Don't let the world become a burden! You are special to us! Your contributions to this community alone are enough to warrant your rightful existence!
I will tell you right now that I know! I know what it takes to tell someone about your pain! I know what it's like to think the things you are thinking!
Read my posts in this thread! Do not take your own life! Do not take from us your unique contribution to this world!
If more and more people succumb to the stress of everyday life then we end with a world less beautiful! You are the letter, the poem, the hug, the kiss, the smile that only you can give! No one else can give it of you! Let us embrace you as a friend. If you don't open your heart and your eyes then we can never help you.
Please, don't let the darkness take you. Come with us to a tavern of friends that sit back and tell stories of great adversity. Join us in the laughter, the tears, and the friendship of good company.
Without you we will be a less beautiful world. Tears of this nature are not the good kind.
If no one else wants to be your friend then I will gladly try to be. Perhaps we can play some more games together and work on ridding you of the empty loneliness that can sometimes overtake our fragile hearts.
Sincerely, Jake "Consis" Batchelor
I don't enjoy talking about such things, but its obvious that you'll end up telling someone sooner or later even though I should have asked while u were awake and online not to. But yes...ppl...as "wonderful" as my lfie seems, it can really suck. For example....how many of u have parents that would come up to u and say face to face, that they'd be happier if u were dead? Or have a cousin that hate's u so much that he'd poison your drink when u leave it set for about 5 minutes? I'll admit that I do, at times, want to commit suicide, its not a happy thought or one that I'm proud of. Living ain't easy for some ppl...while other's live very happy lives. As for what u say Consis, I wonder how anyone can love a complete stranger? As for my contributions to this community? It's like my contributions to the world, no matter how much I'll put into it, its unnoticable... There will always be other ppl to contribute to this community, probably more so than I will. But that's just life... And I'd also like to know if u feel better knowing that I have posted here proclaiming my suicidal tendencies....
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Supreme Hero
Peacemaker = double entendre
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posted March 25, 2004 12:13 AM |
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Dear Gormon:
Sorry I've been so unresponsive of late. I had no idea things were this rough for you. Just to let you know, nobody here has heard much from me recently because I'm frantically trying to wrap up contract work and only have until next Wednesday to do it. So I haven't been ignoring you deliberately.
I don't care if they're your relatives or not. They have no right to treat you that way and you have a right to get away from them and stay away. My only comment about such treatment is there must be some deep dysfunction going on with their lives, and I urge you not to take such terribly hurtful comments to your heart. I know that is difficult considereing the source.
But you deserve better than that my dear.
I'll try and get together with you on the side ASAP. Please, take good care of yourself, friend.
PEACE
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Consis
Honorable
Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted March 25, 2004 12:30 AM |
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I Can Love Any Person I See Fit To
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I don't enjoy talking about such things, but its obvious that you'll end up telling someone sooner or later even though I should have asked while u were awake and online not to.
I kept your privacy intact until you decided to say something. Your life is an important one even if you don't think so. If you read my posts from earlier in the thread you will see that I believe your family-to-be needs you. Your future life-partner that you haven't met, your children, and your friends all need your help to make it through this world. Perhaps you haven't met them yet. You may never meet those wonderful people who will stand by your side if you follow through with what we are talking about.
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I'll admit that I do, at times, want to commit suicide
What if I had done it? What if I was successful and died that day in the bathtub? What of the three children I have today, or my beautiful wife who loves me and enjoys my company? Together we have been through some very difficult situations, some of which, I have described in my posts. What of them? My children need me. I am their father. What if I killed myself? They would not exist. My daughter is three weeks old. Do you have any idea how helpless she is? What would it be like if I had done it? Just ask yourself that.
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As for what u say Consis, I wonder how anyone can love a complete stranger?
That is simple. I wouldn't want to live in a world without art, culture, and variety thereof. You are yet another color for the painting of life. How dull it would be if we only lived in black and white.
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As for my contributions to this community? It's like my contributions to the world, no matter how much I'll put into it, its unnoticable... There will always be other ppl to contribute to this community, probably more so than I will. But that's just life...
In the equation that is life and infinitely unpredictable you add an important variable. Let's call it the "Matt-gorman-Thomas-variable". Only you can offer this addition to life's equation. Only you are you and therefore it can only come from you. If you die that equation will be lessened. I believe that the more variables to the equation the more beautiful our world can be.
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And I'd also like to know if u feel better knowing that I have posted here proclaiming my suicidal tendencies..
Gorman if nobody knows then nobody can help you. If you read this thread you will learn some have committed suicide that didn't tell anyone. They left their loved ones filled with frustration. How could they help the person when they didn't even know? They will live with that for the rest of their lives thanks to the person that didn't tell them. It seems to be a very painful existence left for the people who might have helped had they known.
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gorman
Promising
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Been around since before 2003
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posted March 25, 2004 03:14 AM |
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I kept your privacy intact until you decided to say something. Your life is an important one even if you don't think so. If you read my posts from earlier in the thread you will see that I believe your family-to-be needs you. Your future life-partner that you haven't met, your children, and your friends all need your help to make it through this world. Perhaps you haven't met them yet. You may never meet those wonderful people who will stand by your side if you follow through with what we are talking about.
Gorman if nobody knows then nobody can help you. If you read this thread you will learn some have committed suicide that didn't tell anyone. They left their loved ones filled with frustration. How could they help the person when they didn't even know? They will live with that for the rest of their lives thanks to the person that didn't tell them. It seems to be a very painful existence left for the people who might have helped had they known.
Tru if nobody knows nobody can help... But they say that those who talk about it r highly unlikely to do it.
Tell me something Consis, do u believe that there is someone destined to be w/another person? How can u tell what your destiny is? Perhaps my destiny will be to fight in another war the US has w/some other country and die. U can never tell what your destiny is. And trust me Peace, I stay as far from any of my "family" member's as possible...
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Consis
Honorable
Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted March 25, 2004 07:07 AM |
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You Will Go Where You Choose
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Tell me something Consis, do u believe that there is someone destined to be w/another person? How can u tell what your destiny is?
Gorman,
I do...believe that if you choose to rise to meet your fate then you will have lived honorably. Do you want to be the man who gave up? Don't quit.
In life, if you choose to be a true hero then you will be. I must tell you that people are suffering all over the world. Let's say you decide to be a hero in your heart.
Perhaps you don't join the army. Perhaps you go on living here in your current city and work hard to make ends meet. Along the way of being a hero in your heart you meet a person who is truly in pain. You listen to his or her story and you realize that you don't have it so bad anymore. Perhaps you hear about a woman who is raped and beaten because her boyfriend got drunk. Perhaps you hear about a little boy who had his arms broken by his father for coming home too late. Maybe you will meet a woman who is too greedy and is hording money leaving less fortunate families to starve and go on welfare. Perhaps you will see a drug dealer who doesn't give a ******* **** about the kids he sells to. Then you see one of these kids overdosing, throwing up, convulsing, jerking, and suffocating on his own vomit in an alley where his "friends" left him for dead. Perhaps you will see some gang members brutally beating some guy on the street with baseball bats for the change in his wallet and his shoes.
What....will you do....
Let's say you are recruited to fight in some war somewhere in the world. A war that you don't agree with. But while you are over seas and hating serving in the military you find yourself face to face with a dying mother and her child both starving and dying of malnutrition. You see her and she wants to cry but she is too dehydrated to even weep. She hasn't had food or water in days. In your pack you have a peanutbutter sandwich and a canteen of water. You giver her some and her child when nobody else could. She thanks you and tells God to bless you for your kindness. Perhaps you fall in love with a foreign woman and bring her back to the united states. Maybe you can show her it is ok for women to go to school and it is not ok to be beaten by your husband. Who knows.
What...will you do....
You see, you don't ******* know what's going to happen. You haven't got a clue. Nobody does. You must ask yourself how you want to live. People who want to commit suicide sometimes forget that there is a whole world of people who would also like to stop living because of the inhospitable conditions they were born into. You can be a hero in your heart. But....only if you choose to be.
What....will you do....
You see, you may never get the chance to meet those people or give a starving baby and its mother food and water. All you can do is make the choice in your heart should you ever get the chance. One day, a time may come when someone needs you to be strong for them but only if you choose to live and be a responsible man who truly learns to accept love in his heart.
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Aculias
Responsible
Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted March 25, 2004 07:47 AM |
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Well for one Suicide is the one of the easiast ways to end your problem because you wont have that problem again Ever.
Except the people that care about you blaming thier selves & never letting go.
Thats why it is selfish when you suicide & think that people like your good friends & family will be better off.
In fact they will have to deal with it for the rest of thier lives.
I know how they feel because of what they put thier family through or friends etc.
People just dont think before they make thier actions.
Unfortunately the victim cant see all the misery he caused for people that actually did care for them.
Thats why if theres any signs at all, help him or her.
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gorman
Promising
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Been around since before 2003
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posted March 25, 2004 07:08 PM |
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What....will you do....
You see, you may never get the chance to meet those people or give a starving baby and its mother food and water. All you can do is make the choice in your heart should you ever get the chance. One day, a time may come when someone needs you to be strong for them but only if you choose to live and be a responsible man who truly learns to accept love in his heart.
Indeed, what would I do? In a war giving someone food and water would seem highly logical, u never know when that bullet will hit u, if it ever does. U never know when someone may need u, but u will never know IF someone will actually need u. The whole point is to live through life, having it possibly get worse or possibly get better, to wait for someone who may need u. And what if that person never comes? And what truely is love? There is no clear answer to what "love" truely is, everyone has their own belief on the meaning of the word. Like when someone says I love u, to me its saying that I care about u alot. But to some it can mean something totally different. As for suicide, there is no hope for it. There is no real "good" reason to kill yourself. That's all too true. But what will happen when depression takes a hold of u and the grin of death stares u in the face? You can either stare it in the eye and live, or accept its embrace which will come sooner or later. The point of living out ones full life is knowing that u never know what your life has in store for you, each decision changes that course in life. Like a river it will either go smoothly down one path, or through rough current down another. All I'd like is some smooth sailing every now and then... not this whitewater rafting bs.
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Svarog
Honorable
Supreme Hero
statue-loving necrophiliac
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posted March 25, 2004 08:53 PM |
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Sometimes hope is all we have left
I don’t believe in destiny. In fact, I believe in the destiny you create for yourself.
True, often circumstances can be very hard for some people, probably yours are much harder than mine, but only you have the power to change it.
How do you know that when you’re older you won’t meet the love of your love, have a bunch of kids, and “live happily ever after”? In difficult times, hope is all we have left. If you decide whether to live or die, don’t bring that decision for others not to feel crushed when you’re gone. Bring that decision for yourself, my friend.
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KittenAngel
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Lee's wifey
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posted March 26, 2004 06:11 AM |
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Well the 2nd Conis was speaking of would be me. There are time when i feel like just giving up and say hell with the world and ending all my pain. After everything that is happening with Gangrail and I, and all the stress of my job and life it is all just getting to me. So much pain and hurt has came between Gan and I, it is litterally tearing me apart, yes i know i am the one who left the marrage, but i did it out of the best intrest of us both. Living as total strangers for years, and the constant fighting and hurting eachother. I care for Gan deeply i just wish things didn't have to come to this. Having to deal with the fact of losing my sons, and the hell my daughter has been put through, and being away from someone i love dearly, it is just getting to me. Now as far as actually harming myself i am too chicken snow to do that but yes the thoughts have crossed my mind, if not for Gorman Aculias, and Kaytibug, i seriously do not think i would be typing this letter now. I love you guys, and thanks for being there for me. A special thank you is for Aculias, for being there for me.
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Aculias
Responsible
Undefeatable Hero
Pretty Boy Angel Sacraficer
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posted March 26, 2004 07:24 AM |
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It was the least I could do  .
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Consis
Honorable
Legendary Hero
Of Ruby
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posted March 26, 2004 07:38 AM |
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It's Good To Be Honest
KittenAngel and Gorman,
Please forgive me, both of you, for taking such a forward step in talking about your personal lives. I meant nothing but concern for both of your well-beings. Gorman asked me how I could love somebody I don't know. I responded with my usual fervor but I would also like to add some more.
I have a lot of love in my heart. What if I simply wanted to share it? What if both of your posts have reached me personally and affected me to a more profound extent? They have. I love you both for who you are. I've said that of KittenAngel from the start. I have said the same to Gorman. The two of you are so very different and yet you both add positive energy to my thoughts.
In more ways than one, I want to be your friends. When a person wants to be friends the last and worst thing that could happen would be to lose them to suicide. To me that would mean you gave up without a fight. To me that would say that you both have forgotten the strength that lies deep within you. We all have it but we don't all remember it's there.
I've said it before and I'll say it again. Someday someone will need you to be strong for them. Or maybe they already did and you didn't notice. Maybe the posts you've made changed the person reading them for the better. Remember that when you want to end your life. I know, suicide takes years if not eternity to recover from. I still live with my pain of the past. However, with posts like the two of you make, it helps my pain subside a little bit every time I see them. You may not have known the affect this community has had on me. That is one way it has affected me.
Both of you are great members and I, for one, enjoy reading about your every day life's experiences. Don't stop being who you are(i.e. suicide) because if you do then you may take others with you whom you may have been carrying with your own natural strength. It's in you both. Remember that. God bless you both.
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gorman
Promising
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Been around since before 2003
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posted March 26, 2004 07:40 AM |
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if not for Gorman Aculias, and Kaytibug, i seriously do not think i would be typing this letter now. I love you guys, and thanks for being there for me. A special thank you is for Aculias, for filling my heary with love again, I love you baby.
Off topic: Well I think this solves the mystery of Aculias' love! 
Back on topic: Hey, I'm just glad to help. U have kids, u have something to live for, u now have Aculias. Your life will get better. Some ppl just rn't that lucky and still have the daily bs in life...
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KittenAngel
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Lee's wifey
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posted March 26, 2004 07:43 AM |
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Consis: You just made tears come to my eyes, thanks for caring.
Gorman: You know I am here for you when you need me, yes i have kids yes I have someone there for me, but things are still very hard on me right now.
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Promising
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ya.... ur tellin me....
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