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Ho there William, cool down...
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The bit in Bold is absolutely stupid I must say.
My friend an Inferiour Being?
Just because he may have some problems does not class him as an Inferiour Being, no human is Inferiour, that is just absurd to even hear or even say that.
True, no human is inferior to another human. Yet most of us look at others in disdain from time to time, or consider their actions to be foolish or ignorent. Maybe Antipaladin merely meant your friend might be considered inferior in the eyes of the bully. Given most bullies pick out kids who can't defend themselves very well, and are physically or verbally weaker, I could only argue with Antipaladin's choice of words. He's got a point.
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Bullies don't have a right to take their anger out onto other people, and I have now learnt that, and I will not hurt anyone, unless I have an extremely good reason to.
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If someone said something bad about my family, like "you're mums a fat *****" then I would go up to that guy and try and knock him out.
In my humble opinion no one ever has the right to take their anger out onto other people, no matter what the circumstances are. No one ever has the right to hurt anyone else. About how realistic this statement is, is food for another discussion. But a guy calling your mother names, is not a good reason to hit someone in the face. If someone shot your pet dog in front of your eyes, taking the nearest heavy object and hurling it at the guy's face would be understandable. But it would still not be justified or right to do so.
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But yet again, if there is a teacher nearby, what do they do?
They do nothing, because this is the stupid world we live in, people getting treated unfairly and that is just cruel.
What should give them the right to treat someone else differently and treat my friend completely opposite, like say for this:
I get in trouble for punching someone in the face, next day the same teacher is there, and the other kid punches me in the face.
You know what get's done about that?
Nothing, because this school teaching system is corrupt!!!
People getting into fights and all that, and nothing get's done.
This is exactly what angers me, is that the people we look for help, often ignore it and do not help the situtation whatsoever.
Sad, but true.
People accross the world get treated unfairly. Half of Africa is dying, and many people in your own country barely have enough money to pay their bills. You think that's fair?
Life in itself is not fair, in that some people are born severly disabled, and others get ripped out of life too soon. There's little or no benefit to be found in complaining about it. A much more constructive approach is to do something about it, rather than whine about the people you consider responsible for doing.
If I'd be a teacher, and would see you start fighting about once every week. Trying to work out solutions every time, hoping you will learn to control your violence, but seeing the same thing repeat itself over and over again. Then one day someone else starts a fight with you for a change, and you expect me to take sides for you? Teachers are people too, and I can perfectly understand they grow sick of all that fighting, and always the same kids being involved.
Take your time to see where someone is coming from, what their point of view and situation is, before jumping to conlusions based on how you think everyone should see something. It's worth the effort.
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If I'd be a teacher, and would see you start fighting about once every week. Trying to work out solutions every time, hoping you will learn to control your violence, but seeing the same thing repeat itself over and over again. Then one day someone else starts a fight with you for a change, and you expect me to take sides for you? Teachers are people too, and I can perfectly understand they grow sick of all that fighting, and always the same kids being involved.
So does that mean that if it the same kids getting in fights, that gives the teacher a right to ignore it?
But anyway, thanks for you're post Nidhgrin and Rbuy 
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posted December 08, 2006 07:21 PM |
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I hate my life.
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posted December 08, 2006 08:09 PM |
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Ya need to start apreciating life & just live it before it passes you by.
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posted December 08, 2006 08:48 PM |
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Yeah well I'm working on that part. 
Maybe some sleep will help. 
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posted December 19, 2006 04:56 PM |
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My family is up in flames. My mom is furious about many things. Everything appears to be in shambles. It's almost Christmas, and there is hardly a feeling of love that unites us above all else. It's times like these that I wish I was elsewhere. This is why I rarely smile at home. This is why I rarely feel at peace at home.
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posted December 19, 2006 05:01 PM |
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Jeez that must be tough.
Well right now my mum is in hospital, another asthma attack, but luckily this was not so bad this time, and she is coming out either tommorow or this Friday.
But maybe you could do something for the occasion, maybe have a christmas party, or a family BBQ or something like that, just to try and get everything nice and happy again.
Look Guitarguy, my dad gets angry with me very easily and all the time, but I still smile at home because I am just that kind of crazy person, and there is always something for me to do that could cheer me up, wehether it is talk to friends here, or make my music, or play my xbox or computer games, or just talk with my sister and have a few games with eachother with xbox or maybe watching the TV or going into the pool, all of those kinds of things can cheer me up really easily, maybe you should try them aswell.
If you have any friends that live nearby, maybe hang out with them, or just practice playing your guitar even more, just hanging out or chilling out.
Maybe doing something with another one of your family members, or just sitting with your mum and trying to help her not to be angry, those things can help, as sometimes I have had to try those things in order to get this family nice and happy again although at times it is rather hard to do those kinds of things but atleast I still try.
Hang your head up and try to do something with your time or with your family and make it all happy and bring back the love that a family has once again in order for christmas, as that is a happy time for everyone, and the birthday of Jesus
I know you can do it Guitarguy, just believe in yourself, maybe you can talk with me or something, as I will try anything to make you feel better.
Hope things work out for you
And have a happy christmas
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My family is up in flames. My mom is furious about many things. Everything appears to be in shambles. It's almost Christmas, and there is hardly a feeling of love that unites us above all else. It's times like these that I wish I was elsewhere. This is why I rarely smile at home. This is why I rarely feel at peace at home.
-Guitarguy
That's what music is for
I'm sorry to hear that though. I hate that feeling, but the only thing you can do really is just go to somewhere where you can be alone, and as will said, do something that makes you smile, when nothing else will.
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It is not for you to salvage your family. You are not in a position or proper state of mind to accomplish this monumental feat. I would say (from experience) the only people who could possibly bring it all together and start the healing process are your parents. But . . . it sounds as though they might be as infantile and immature as my own parents were. Tell yourself the truth: you are the only real adult at home/you shouldn't be made to endure such childishness/you will one day leave and become the solid foundation (a rock) of whom your entire family will soon look to for inner strength and courage/you are the hero/your destiny is your choosing and it belongs to no one else.
My parents have never, in all the long years since I've left home, never recovered from their inability to reconcile the most childish grievances. They say they cared for their children. But did they truly? Were they caring for us when they put their own little petty selfish differences above the good of the family? Did they care when they beat each other to a pitiful bloody pulp? When they were hospitalized and seperating . . . who provided love, kindness, and basic needs to the youngest children in the family? Who gave us (the children) a voice?
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Thanks for the responses, folks. Things have cooled down since late last night, but I know from past experiences that my family's problems are deeply rooted. It's not hell, but it's a pain that cannot be healed through quick and easy means. It's like an itch that's too far to reach, only more unpleasant and quite discouraging.
There are many things about my family that I'd love to change, if only to make things more pleasant and endurable for all. However, a lot of things have gone on for so long that there's honestly too little I can do or say to alleviate it. My mom's under a lot of pressure from doing many things for many people, and it eats at her very often. She has to put up with a failed marriage with my dad and all the crap that goes along with it. Then she has to deal with how my grandparents apparently favor/support her sister (my aunt) over her, which pisses her off badly. I've tried talking supportively to her in the past, but she assures me that I've not much to do with it. These problems are too complex for me to explain, and to do so would probably be a fruitless cause. All I know is that I can expect these things to play behind the scenes, even when things appear to be calm and peaceful.
It's hard to smile because I know about all these things. These things sit with me forever, and I never truly feel happy. Things feel tainted, and it honestly doesn't feel like family to me. It's just us, people living together and putting up with each other.
I really wish something like this could be settled through a nice family BBQ or some other pleasant event, but it's futile at this point. There are so many strains between all of us that sometimes I even question whether love is a factor in my family at all. Even though it is, I cannot help but be torn apart by these experiences time and time again. There is truly no end to it; it will come up time after time. Music doesn't help me anymore; even the most soothing or encouraging of songs will fall flat when there's shouting/crying going on in the next room. Reading the Bible and praying doesn't help much, as my faith has been shattered as of late. Talking to RL friends is also a hard thing, since it's an Asian characteristic to keep personal things within the family. Anyway, I really doubt that my church friends have any idea about what I'm going through. Probably not, since I have to "mask" myself every time I see them. There's little I can do, except maybe just endure it all.
I think about Laura, and I wonder if she'd ever give me a second thought if she knew that these things are going on in my family. I dread it very much.
-Guitarguy
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Down hill ay? well my family fight alot, sometimes it gets bad...
like my dad wif my brother, they have physical fights, like wif hitting and stuff...
its really bad, coz my brother got sooo angry he got admitted to a mental health hospital and he was on suicide watch...hes like 17months older then me, yer but he has axiety disorder, ADHD and tourettes, but the touettes have nothing to do wif anything.
i hate it when they all fight i get dragged into the fights about always being on the computer and about other stuff i dont wanna say.
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Neally every day last year i had to see the school counseller coz i got bullied really bad from neally everyone in my grade.
like, they shuved and pushed me, calle dme F**ing retard, other really bad names, and i was just really depressed for a while.
yer and one day this guy in my math clas was pissing me off so i punched him in the face, yes i got sent to the principals office, but i got away wif what i did coz the principal knows how much that guy buggs me. and he got in alot of trouble!!! HAHAHA
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posted December 20, 2006 12:50 PM |
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Well I threw a hacksaw at someone once because he kept continously annoying me, and he was the one that got into trouble, not me, because he provoked me and he didn't stop, so he had it coming all along.
Me and my dad have physical punchup's, often resulting in one of us getting hurt, sometimes him sometimes me, he has once pinned me down to the floor and started punching my face, over and over, and I think I got a couple of bruises, but I am older now, and I do not like getting hit, and when provoked I will fight back.
I have hit my dad before, yes I will admit that, but I do not think that the person that created me (along with my mum ofcourse) should be hitting me.
I know it is not ok for me to be hitting the one who made me, but he is like 50 years old, he should know better, and I am still growing up, I do not need these kind's of things bothering me for a long time, and maybe even making me depressed that I had such a lousy and violent father.
I will in the future, try to become the opposite to what my father is, because I do not want to hit my grilfriend or wife EVER, and I wouldn't hit my children if I have any that is 
Things have been going alright at home lately, my mum is coming out of hospital in a few days, maybe today or maybe in 2 days time which is excellent news, but me and my dad had a fight the other day and my thumg still hurts from that infact, but not as much as it did, my thumb got injured you see
To Godric:
I feel sorry that your brother had to go through that, that must have been terrible for him to go through that ordeal, been on suicidal watch or whatever it was must have really sucked.
I have tried commiting suicide before because I was so fed up of my life, having fights with my parents, physical fights with my dad, fights at school, my adhd and odd, just everything really sucked.
But then I tried harder at school, and then I came through.
Those people that are teasing you and whatnot, well I do not know if they are teasing you still, but if they are, just simply ignore them,that is what I do and it works fine.
What I used to do before was to tell them to stfu, and maybe push or punch them, and that is what led me getting in trouble, and got me some suspensions.
Mainly I got my suspensions because people provoked me alot and I just snapped, maybe hurting someone or a group of people or doing something like insulting a teacher or whatnot, but I just snapped.
I have not been in trouble recently, because I am trying hard to be good and for me right now it is working like a charm.
You should not let those people get to you, that's exactly what they want you to do, and they are only trying to push your buttons, so why let them win?
You have got to try everything you can to prevent them from winning, and making you snap, because that's exactly what they want you to do, and that is what will get you into touble.
Believe me, it has happened much before.
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Left Behind
June 2005:
It was Laura's graduation day, and I met up with two of my church leaders to drive down to the commencement ceremony. As we were getting there, I was beaming with excitement and happiness for Laura, as she'd been my church friend for several years and my crush on her was at its peak. Little did I know that I would later walk away from the event with my heart feeling devastated.
The ceremony itself was rather interesting. I never thought I'd witness that high school's graduation ceremony, largely due to my leaving the school four years earlier because of my dwindling GPA. But no matter how much more elaborate it was compared to my own graduation, my mind was mainly focused on Laura. She was called up twice to speak; while she's a quiet girl, she spoke flawlessly. She had my complete admiration. As far as my one-track mind was concerned, the best part of the ceremony was over.
When everybody crowded out of the building to see the grads, I rejoined my church leaders and friends to seek out Laura's spot. When we finally found her, I noticed that even more people from church were there to congratulate her. In fact, our group consisted of more people than the bunch that came to see me at my graduation. When it was my turn to greet Laura, I hugged her, gave her some gifts, and congratulated her. That went fairly well, but the worse was to come real soon.
Now that we were one big group of church friends, we got to greet each other and catch up on things. I happened to see my old friend Troy, who had been friendly with me for a long time. He switched churches a year earlier, so I was anxious to talk to him again. I walked up and said hi, only to be surprised when he didn't respond to me. He was clearly looking at me, or at least in my direction, yet he didn't say a word. I have no idea whether it was just the tumultous volume of the entire place or if he had too much on his mind to speak to me; all I knew was that I never expected him to be that way.
As it turned out, I had to call my dad to pick me up. I just so happened to have a grad party to attend directly after Laura's graduation, so I had to call home in time to avoid being late. I stepped away from the crowd that had developed around Laura and pulled out my cellphone. The call took within two minutes, so I put the phone away and returned to my large group...
...only to find them all posing with Laura for a group photo. My heart flipped out and I was burning with rage on the inside. WHY THE HELL DID THEY NOT WAIT FOR ME??!! I sorely approached the lot of them and asked why they went ahead with taking a group picture without me included. The noise must've been too loud for them to hear my already soaring voice, as most of them were still standing there clueless. I quickly aligned myself with the rest of them, in fervent hopes of getting in the next photo. Suddenly, everybody started to move out of their pose positions and disband. I turned to John, my youth leader, and nervously asked why everybody was breaking up already. He started asking around if they could take another picture, but it became known that they'd used up all their film just then. Upon hearing this, I was utterly devastated. This was Laura's graduation day, and I was the only attendee who did not make it into the group photo(s). I felt like a piece of crap from top to bottom, and I could feel the tears begin to well up. But I didn't cry; I'm never able to truly cry now that I'm older, except if I have a troubling dream. But that didn't stop the tears from showing up, so I quickly and effectively wiped them away in order to hide my feelings. I just stood there looking calm, although I was being torn limb from limb deep down. Suddenly, Laura came up to me and hugged me; she thanked me for coming. I felt a slight shimmer of comfort from her embrace, even though I seriously doubted that she had any idea about how I was feeling at that moment. After we parted ways, I walked slowly out of the crowds and headed towards the bus stop to wait for my dad. I still felt the crushing blow with every step that I took; my sighs were heavy and my heart was weeping inside. Sitting down at the stop, I looked ahead and watched the cars zoom by, left and right. In those long moments of pain, I wanted to hurl myself into that busy street. I wanted to overwhelm myself with a pain that would make my current one feel small in comparison. I just wanted to die.
A year and a half later, I still feel the pain from that experience. I still can't believe Troy looked at me and stood silent, as though I was a stranger. I still can't believe that I was left out of the group photo, and that the people who I've always considered to be my closest friends didn't wait for me. Thinking about it makes my heart ache again; that was a hellish nightmare I went through.
January 2007:
In mid-December, I was communicating with a girl named Kristen who is aspiring to form a songwriting team/band. She and her friend Mike were interested in a collaborative get-together during Winter Break, and I was invited to be a part of it. On Kristen's online page, she had my name next to Mike's under her list of band members. It seemed promising enough.
As it turned out, I was out sick for half of the break, meaning I couldn't meet up with them to play music. While I was still recovering, I found out that they had gotten together following exams and had written a song as a team. Cool, I thought; maybe I can hear it from them when I finally get better.
I finally got over the cold by Christmas Day, and I felt ready to start the songwriting collaboration that had been delayed by my illness. I left Kristen a message saying that I was better and that I was ready to play. She replied and said that she'd have to discuss picking a good jam date with Mike. At that time, there was a full week left before the new semester.
Today is Friday, a week later, and the break is practically over. I didn't get a word from Kristen or Mike this entire week. I checked my inbox daily, yet there were no replies. I began to believe that the two of them might have gotten busy during the week and, thus, couldn't meet up with me. That in itself seemed okay, as things like this happen all the time. I could live with it, I thought to myself, especially since we might be able to meet during the semester.
Today, I read a bulletin from Kristen announcing the completion of the song recording they'd been working on earlier. She went on to comment that she was very happy with Mike's assistance in playing guitar for her. I was surprised by the bulletin, and I had a subtle feeling of dread flowing about inside me. I checked under the band members section and saw exactly what I feared.
My name was gone.
Was I informally removed from the collaborative effort? Why didn't they say anything about this, or at least keep me regularly updated about their plans? This painful realization occurred only hours ago, and now I'm unable to sleep because of it. There are still many questions, namely if Kristen and Mike are really intent on going on without me. This really hurts, because I thought I had finally found an opportunity to work with other enthusiastic young musicians and possibly form a band with them. I'm crushed, and I hate the thought of being left behind yet again.
-Guitarguy
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Hey Matt, I am sorry to hear that, you got left behind by your friends, and then a year later, well 2 years later, it happened again.
I wont do that to my friends, ever, that is why most of them trust me, but some people or just like that, they can be your friend and then all of a sudden you don't even think you know them anymore, it is quite sad really, but true I'm afraid.
I was especially sad to hear that in your first entry part, where you were waiting for your dad, that you felt like you wanted to die.
That is stupid thinking, I thought that once, and that is when I tried taking my own life, but I couldn't do it, my life is to precious to me, and it would affect so many people around me, and I got a big future ahead of me, I couldn't let it go to waste by taking my own life, and I don't want to hear that you wan'ted to take our own life aswell, well that you felt like dying, that is sad and silly, more sad actually, and I feel really sorry for you.
I hope that you do meet up with those friends again, and with Laura, but instead of abbandoning you like they did last time, they will include you in a photo or something like that.
I just hope everything works out with the best.
Maybe if you like, if I can help cheer you up, me and you could make music together?
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posted January 05, 2007 10:35 PM |
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Hello, Guitarguy...
Your story touched me. I can't say I've been into many situations like the ones you describe, rather the opposite. Even though I've calmed down a lot over the years, I still live fast, have a steep career path, and meet and keep contact with many new people all the time. I'd never have enough time to keep in touch with everyone, so I have to cut strings every now and then, even though it makes me feel guilty sometimes...
To me, life is like a river. There are moments when the water flows slowly and silently. There are other times when there are waterfalls or wild and hasty parts.
As a person, we're like a boat floating on that river. If you try to mimic or follow other boats, you may manage, or you may not. Point is, whether you can follow or not, if you try to follow other boats without wondering if that's where YOU want to go, you possibly end up in a side-arm of the river, before you realize you don't belong there at all.
If you first try to get to know how your boat moves on the stream, how it reacts to subtle changes of direction in the water, to rocks and other obstacles, if you get to know what the weaknesses and the strengths of your particular boat are, it will become much easier to navigate. Over time, it will become obvious that taking your boat through certain rapids is a high risk, while taking your boat through slow shallow waters may make you get stuck...
Once you grow confident in navigating your boat, you will become more determined in deciding which currents to follow or to row against, which other boats you should follow, and for how long, and which boats you should certainly not follow. With this growing confidence, you will notice other boats following you, taking you as an example, and navigate under your guidance.
That is just a metaphore of course...
But you have skills, other than the guitar you obviously play You're a very sensitive person, and that doesn't need to be a weakness, or something other people take advantage off. Get to know yourself, shield yourself off from people that might abuse your kindness of heart, and use your sensitivity and emotional depth as a strength whenever you can. You strike me more as the soul of a band, a lyrics writer, or a singer silencing the croud with his voice, than someone who is needed in a band for his technical guitar playing skills, and nothing but that.
Just some thoughts...
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posted January 05, 2007 10:40 PM |
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This world can not be fair all the time.
Wishing & hoping but you never know when or not when to be somewhere.
This world can truly suck.
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posted January 06, 2007 03:50 AM |
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William, I really don't appreciate your latest HCM. You think what I'm going through is just a load of BS? Do you think that my problems are so trivial that you can easily lift my spirits? I'm depressed and unsure about what to think about many things. I'm not feeling as secure as I usually am, because these problems have dealt me truly harsh blows. It's not as easy as you think.
You keep insisting that I should check out your new synthesizer, even when I really don't feel like doing so. I apologized about not being in the mood, but you still push and expect me to be cool about it. Well, let me tell you that my world isn't always bright and sunny. It's a very brooding time, and only I have a real idea about how it all feels. I don't flip back up like a resilient weed after being crushed underfoot. I need time to heal and regain my security. If you cannot respect that wish, then I guess you're not a real friend.
-Guitarguy
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Look dude, I might not be in the mood for stuff aswell, but atleast I try and give them a go, to aatleast try and cheer myself up, you do not do anything, and that is probably what makes you more depressed, angry, sad or whatever it is you go through.
I would appriciate if you read my latest HCM, don't bring hcm matter's across the posts, hcm stays within HCM not out of it, unless I did something majorly wrong.
You could have put yur point across in a HCM seeing as though that post was directed entirely at me.
If you do not think of me as a friend for only trying to cheer you up, then so be it, I will not try and retaliate by making you more angry then you already are.
Thankyou very much.
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posted January 06, 2007 04:13 AM |
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hey hey HEY NOW Guitar.
You need to chill.
WIlliam was probally meaning well.
No need to go at him like that.
He was probally trying to cheer you up.
Dont take it out on him because your life is tough.
You just learn to deal with it ok.
Yea my life is tough & alot of people on here.
Some are tougher & some are not.
You should know how William is.
He gets Euthisiastic when he finds someone who has the same likings as he does.
You need to calm yourself down & relax a bit.
I am sorry for your lost.
Sometimes this world can take wrong turns.
Were here for you & whatever you need.
I think you need to make an apology to him because that is so not cool.
You know what Guitar.
You know what to do man.
Your lazy & a probally a procratanator.
You need to find someone or somethang to help boost up that confidence & get your arse out there & do somethang.
First of all you need to mellow your head out.
Second you need to motivate yourself to do somethang about youself.
If you hate who you are or what you look like.
Then change who you are to someone who you like.
About looks, women are very unique.
You would be very surprised what kind of personality & looks women go for.
Why dont you go back & read about me.
Who I lost & what I lost & what I have gone through & who I am now.
I been there man but i am picking myself up.
Dealing with my depression & kmy personal problems from the past.
You can too but you need to find that motivation.
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LummoxLewis
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You pretty much summed it all up there Aculias, and you are completely correct.
Weboth have big interest in music, and since you made that Electronic song, I am interested, cos you might have an interest in synthesizer keyboards, so I was only trying to cheer you up by showing you my one, that was all I was trying to do.
I didn't mean to insult you, or make you feel bad, I was trying to cheer you up, cos lately your life seems to be pretty bad, which you explained on the previous page, one of the last posts.
I try and help my friends out dude, and I try and cheer them up if they are feeling bad, and if you want to decline that from me, well that is your choice, but you can stay being all depressed and sad and all that, I am just trying to do my best to get along with people.
Im sorry if I acted like a "bad friend" in my HCM, but I was trying to do good, instead of bad which I usually end up doing anyway.
Sorry for all this trouble Matt, hope we can stop fighting and all that, and make peace.
-William
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~Ticking away the moments that
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